DXM trip report / looking for some feedback

Hello all. Wanted to maybe get some feedback and wanted to express my experiences with DXM. I've probably done DXM a total of about 20 times.(I'm 20 yrs old) over a period of 3 years. I always bought the robatussin that the only active ingredient is DXM, of course. However, the last 2 times I've done it I've experienced quite different, scary experiences that I want to share. Maybe some can relate..

When I started taking DXM I loved it. Used to do 100-300mgs worth and made me feel awesome. I just loved the feeling, felt alittle drunk and also tripped slighty. Started doing 300-600mg doses and began to experience more of the "robo-tripping" I heard so much about. I liked it aswell. Didnt do it too often, maybe once a month on average. I've also had some very fun trips of about 1000mg as well. I had never had any negetive effects at this point.

The last 2 times Ive taken DXM I've had quite different experiences. 2 times ago about 4 months ago I took about 500-750 mg over a period of 2-3 hours. Long story short I ended up on southbeach(miami) walking up to random people(atleast i thought they were ppl) and walking aimlessly around. Not sure what I was doing. All i remember is having thoughts that I was permenently insane. I had insane thoughts etc..but i didnt much of it really. I didn't really feel the drunk, fuzzy, "scketchy" feeling/vision that I always loved about DXM. I just had scary thoughts, confusion etc..not too fun really.

The last time I took DXM was a few weeks ago. Was just bored one night at home and thought Id get some tussin. Bought a liquid bottle of it, and also 20 gelcaps. I ingested the first bottle(300mg total i think) and relaxed. I then took the remaining 20 caps slowly, over the next 2-3 hours. After this time I felt effects of course, but not too much. Over the years I seem to have developed a permanent tolerance to DXM. So I went back and got one more bottle of liquid tussin. I drank maybe half or alittle more of the bottle, and decided to stop there. I had ingested a total of maybe...750mg about of DXM over 3-4 hours. This is when it all started...

The effects come on SUPER fast all of the sudden. It feels different than I remember. Not as pleasent. My heart is beating pretty fast and I start tripping pretty hard. I go downstairs to try and shake it off but it gets worse. I go outside and smoke a cig, trying to calm down. I start having weird, paranoid thoughts. I feel as if I am going to die. VERY strange feeling pulse through my body. My mind races. I feel my blood pressure rise and my heart RACE. I'm SO confused, hearing random noises, objects are melting and I feel as if my body is going to literally explode. Strangely enough, my BALLS hurt!!!! bad! They're hot, almost as if theyre going to explode! It makes me think theres something very wrong with my body! I feel like a machine, that is about to expire and blow up! and i really belive this is happening. I've taken the same amount of DXM many times..but never have I experienced anything remotely close to this. I'm not even really tripping harder than I had before. It's just different in a BAD way I can't out into words. It was like a differnt drug. I decide that I NEED to go to the hospital. I am dieing. and have a limited time before my bosy either exploded or shuts down. I have many divine thougts going through my head. I know where I am going if I die, and I look up into the dark sky, as if to tell god that I know he is with me. I am INSANE. I am afraid that even going to the hospital will not change it, because i am permentaly insane I think. Everything is metallic. I hear metalic sounds and I feel as if I am, too. Noises are louder, I hear my own thoughts in me head. My thoughts are voices, screaming at me. Every sound is angry, with a weird pitch to it. Everything is intense. I have rediculous thoughts racing through my head. I recognize that I am insane. I realize that I am not completely insane because I atleast recognize that I am insane. And my thoguhts are just CRAZY. I wake my mom up and we go to the hospital. On the way there, I am on a timer in my mind. I feel as if I am going to die..shut down ANY minute now. explode. My blood is metalic. Out of all of this chaos, strangely, I have glimpses of clarity. I keep looking at my mom and telling her that it will be okay. Even though my heart is racing I am SERENE. So angelically serene. Ive never experienced a feeeling like this. As if i died and went to heaven something tells me "It's going to be alright". I am trying to be possitive. And then I get another rush of insanity and my body hurts. I can't explain it...it just hurts and there is something VERy wrong going on. In my mind there is some GRAND scheme behind all of this, some greater reason why all of this is happening and Ive discovered something that I wasn't suposed to or something...hard to explain. Very hard.

Long story short, I am discharged the next morning. I spent the night there, going crazy in hospital bed. The craziness lsated for about 4 - 6 hours. Then is started subsiding. Honestly I dont think I can really explain what it was like so I probably missed alot. I just wrote what came to mind.

Has anyone experienced anything like this? What does this mean? I've only experienced this temporary insanity twince with DXM. It's almost like it triggers something in my brain. I dont get the great feelings I used to from it, instead I get this horrid experience..Since the experience I've had some PTSD, and I am startled more easily. But nothing serious. Once in a while, especially when I do high doses of opiates, I get that insanity that comes back. Sounds sound different, more intense and my thoughts race. I start thing crazy thoughts and get scared. my heart RACES and i get a panic attack. After 15 mins it goes away. I only get this once every few weeks. But ive been getting it for the last few months ever since a dose of DXM a few months back. Well I'm sorry for this huge post! If you read it..thank you! Let me know if this sounds familiar atall, and what it might be? It sadens me that this happens now, and Ive stayed away from DXM since. And it does scare me that I have these episodes of temporary insanity, that seem to be brought on by opiates...and abviously DXM(but way more intense.) Strangely enough I came out of it with some kind of new divine awarness and understanding. The free spiriting drug that gave me much joy in high school has betrayed me, or maybe I betrayed it..but i dont think I will ever be taking DXM again. I just wanted to share my experiences! Thanks! :2thumbsup:

 

If we can rule out medication interaction and other stuff like that, it honestly sounds like a severe panic attack combined with some new side effects from DXM. This happened to me, I did DXM about 12 times and then it started presenting with unpleasant side effects since then, so I stopped, all kinds of bodily pains and weird feelings, confusion, dysphoria.

 

Yes we can rule out med interactions. And I think you may be correct. I have suffered from MINOR panic attacks for a few years now(ever since i started smoking weed alot), and generalized anxiety. However I don't take anything for my anxiety anymore since my family and docs know im an addict and wont give me anything. But it's very strange because Ive taken the same amount of DXM before and didnt get these bad effects...I mean...the effects came on so fast! hit me like a truck. I dont understand it, it was like a switch was flipped in my head. But what you describe is what i experienced...bodily pain / neausea, weird feelings, panic, confusion dysphoria etc.. And it scares me because I feel like maybe i shouldnt take any other pyschoactive / psychedelic drugs. Maybe I will react to them differently too, and I wouldnt want that to happen with a good dose of shrooms or lsd or something. sigh..and the temporary phychosis scares me, because ever since, Ive been having fits of insanity for a period of 10 mins or so and I get a panic attack. Its rare, and happens alot when I take opiates now. I have anxiety issues as well, and stomach problems that seem to be related to smoking pot and using opiates. Well thanks for you input!!