i have an addiction to pot

now before every one starts bashing this post let me start off by saying this is my opinion. im not saying that thc is an addictive substance. but i have mentally addicted myself to this substance. let me give you my background story.

when i was just a wee lad in grade school. i think it was second grade the teachers had a lecture on drugs and why they are bad. and the first thoughts that came into my head are. why are these considered "bad"? if they are so bad and ruin peoples lives, why do so many people do them and continue to do them? as i grew up i slowly became aware of my surroundings. wen i was in about 5th or 6th grade i finally put it together that my parents smoked pot. that's why i could always smell funny "cigarettes" in their room, and i would never smell it when they were around me but always when they were in their room or in the car. what really sealed the deal for me was finding little roaches hidden in my parents room. My father gave me his speech when i was in 6th grade that him and my mom smoke pot, they do it recreational and they didnt want me to do it till i was 18, blah blah blah. well 6th grade summer was the first time i smoked pot, i didnt enjoy it very much. it gave me cotton mouth, eyes were bloodshot, had the munchies and was very paranoid but i was not enjoying it. I smoked a few times after that but never really enjoyed it much (not sure if i was smoking shitty bud, or if my brain was just not developed enough yet for the thc to unlock the doors in my mind). Well wen i was in 10th grade i bought a plastic bong from a friend and a dime bag of what he said was "b-52 killer bud X mighty might" obviously he was just hyping it up but the bud did look alot better than the other times i have seen it. that day after school i got off the bus and ran up to my room, i filled the bong with powerade because i thought it would taste good (come to find out it kinda just makes it worse) and ice. loaded the bowl and took a rip off of it, Coughed my ass off. I cant remember if i finished the bowl or not but i was so high, retartadly high. I felt like i was in a video game, i was cracking up at absolutely nothing. listening to music was awesome. Masturbating was also very pleasurable. everything felt awesome and i remember saying to myself. I want to feel like this every day. and i believe thats where my mental addiction started. i smoked pot on an average of once a week from that day in 10th grade up to this current day. I was recently incarcerated for a probation violation and was sentenced to 9 months in a county correctional facility but i only ended up doing 3 months because i completed a drug consoling course in there. That was the longest i had ever gone with out smoking pot since that day in 10th grade. I had hard time sleeping and eating while i was in there. and i constantly need pot through out my day. the reason i got the probation violation is because i was smoking pot while on probation. I didnt stop smoking even though i knew there was a good chance i was going to get tested and sent to jail. I know i cant blame this entirely on the drug, i know i have some problems if i cant stop doing something even though it is expensive and illegal. I get mad wen i dont have pot or when i cant find it. Its almost like being high is whats keeping me going. its a fucked up cycle. does any one else live like this? can any one relate to what im saying? i love pot, i just wish it didnt come with so much baggage

 

Yeah I think I'll read that once my high comes down.

 

In sophomore year, I smoked everyday because I had nothing to do. So I wanted to pass time faster. But when I got a job. I didn't smoke at all, since I didn't have the time for it. Maybe you should find a new hobby. It's simply your hobby and something you love doing. You must replace it. (That's only if you have or want to)

I still blaze at times, but probably 2~4 days a week but it has to be a large amount! What I do after is study and do work. I get home school now for getting good grades and they gave me an opportunity for having less time.

 

i can relate. 100%. well kinda. im on probation myself. been on it for 1 year and 1/2. i have racked up 13 dirty urines. and nothing happened to me yet. and im going to have another dirty one on monday becuase im going to a Hollywood Undead concert. i know it will eventually. i was clean for 180 days, after completed a mandated stay at rehab. being sober sucks, i agree. but to say you need weed every day is silly.

peace
TO

 

nice!

 

I feel the exact same way, and your answer lies in the things you do when you are not smoking(this includes everything related to pot). find something new, a girl, possibly, to replace this "hobby". also, talk to your parents! i wish i had that luxury! 22 y/o!?! havent you heard of

 

Sublime's 40 oZ to Freedom?? lol gl man

 

thanks dude!

 

i'm 'addicted' to weed to, but it's not causing that big of problems for me in my current situation. in the past it has gotten me arrested and kicked out of college though. i'd like to think i'd quit if i was ever on probation (i'd also like to think i'll never be on probation for anything) but who knows

 

i've got to get more buzzed to see the words for the wall of text... :O

 

im addicted to weed, so i just hit the bong and say fuck it

 

ditto.
there's worse things i could be addicted to. i don't use tobacco, i don't get drunk more than once a month (although i have a few drinks at least once a week), and i don't use caffeine other than in tea.

up with dope,
down with....the pope?

 

Looking at something worse and saying well at least i'm not that bad is a terrible excuse IMO. This is not good advice.

 

im a pot addict. anyone who doesn't think pot can be addicting is a moron.

it's a shame the pro-weed folk and the anti-weed folk are really the only ones releasing marijuana info. both sides lie/distort facts to try to prove their stance.

weed might not be chemically addicting, but it sure as hell is addicting in some manner...emotionally or psychologically or something. i quit pot and cigarettes at the same time for a while, and i remember, at times, thinking staying off the weed was the harder of the two.

 

That's how my curiosity with heroin normally goes. If it's bad and they'll ruin their lives why do people continue to do it anyways? I haven't done it though. But a man once walked up to me at the tavern to tell me I had pretty eyes and that he had heroin in his microwave.

 

so what's your excuse?

 

Been 4 months now, where I've had to give it up for a Government job where I get drug tested.

I sooooo fuckin miss it.

Pot is awesome

 

Excuse for?

 

What do you mean "need"?

I can certainly relate to the symptoms of irritability, insomnia, and hunger issues.

 

Put some paragraphs in that shit, man!

I agree with Deranged. Its definitely psychologically addicting and habit forming.