My paranoia is a problem.. Someone help please

Whenever I watch like ghost films or ghost programs even viewing gruesome photographs or films, I have a really dfficult time sleeping. My mind is crazy and I'm just scared of seeing a ghost even in a newly built home that I live in, I'm always afraid of the dark. I have the same issue when I read about it. The problem of reading horrific things before going to sleep is that I have nightmares of what I read. Some people have nightmares from usually television or videos but for me it's reading.

 

What freaks me out most of the time, is thinking about dreams, or thinking about hallucinations I have had.. and I just get.. I dunno. I feel like I am getting overwhelmed by the darkness in the room, and I tend to freak out.. It's really weird and sometimes I can control it and sometimes I can't. Its exactly like that feeling after watching a scary movie or reading scary stories.. I guess I'm just a scardy cat.. Lol

 

I'm really glad someone else has this problem also.. Well not glad that you have to go through it, but glad that you have a similar situation.. And its true, its not that I think someone is going to stab me. Its the shear thought of that. If that makes sense.. I don't actually think someone is there, but when I think about it, it gives me the spooks and I hear every noise in the house.. I HATE it. If you ever find a solution tell me...

Valerian doesn't work for me, it puts me to sleep, but in the morning I feel extra tired.. Its easier to get stoned and fall asleep.. It seriously is the only solution I have and use.

 

welcome the stabbing

invite it

tell it, "if you're there, come get me"

then assume you will die in the night, and close your eyes.

If you wake up the next morning, you will find a new strength inside.

 

Now I know the inspiration between my sig. Thank you

 

I'm with Mr.Writer

shit or get off the pot

 

Thats really cool lol

Normally for me, if I'm high I fall right asleep.. lol

 

Go to a doctor.

 

My thoughts exactly. thats how i got rid of this fear of darkness and ghosts since 8 years old. just one day i was sick and tired of nightmares, i just gave up running. it just disappears.

But now im experiencing paranoia.. and i know it, i also know this paranoia will disappear in a few days, and then come back not long after that. feeling low self esteem and depression. im really sick of these negative thoughts popping up. i tried meditation.. it helps abit, but i know this negativity will always be around and uncontrollable at times.

I'm a regular marijuanna smoker. Back then when i smoke, i always get paranoid like my friends trying to turn on me. but next day i just look back and feel stupid. so i keep smoking hoping i would get use to it. because im the type to fight my pain so i dont feel it no more.

So now im on this page trying to find a quick cure to this problem of paranoia. really cbf with it, been pushing my friends away because of it. Then when im having manic episode, everythings all good i look back thinking wtf was i thinking. then when i hit paranoia.. its same thing all over again!!

 

Quick cure? sorry mate, aint no such thing.
Therapy and a loving partner ought to help but it'd take time even then and might never be done and over with.
I did hear that shamans in the amazon forests uses a ritual of passage to manhood that forces one to confront ones own worst fears through delirium when partaking in a brew mainly made of ayahuaska bark.
Although I have no in-depth knowledge on it so perhaps take it with a pinch of salt.
For me a lot of my problems as a teenager became clear and simple to solve when I ingested some rather larger doses of mushrooms and got some self enlightenment but I am aware that mixing psychadelics and mental problems (which I did not have, be it anxiety, depression, etc) might well land you in quite a lot worse of a mess.

If you have never been to a shrink, might be worth a go, if you have been goin to one since you were a kid though I'd say it's time to experiment with other ways of solving the problem.
Oh, and if they got you doing anti-psychotic medication it might be an idea to stop mixing those with other things like the weed ^^