isn't it cool to have a sense of yourself, to see the broad strokes and the image that you create.... it is real hard to see... but to sometimes step back and see the cult of personality that you are... ... and i find that other people are much much better at seeing me than i am myself... how about you?? and in other people too... to see the image of them... i wonder how much it is an image of a person that you have created, and how much is an expression from the person... i guess the real expression is genuine - but the image that you create of a person is important too... it is like a blueprint, and maybe that tells you more about yourself than about them, but that can't be bad a bad thing either...... and maybe sometimes how we see other people is really a way to see our self! but i am very narcissistic haha
I think that type of stuff sometimes. I wonder how I look to the world. What I find fascinating is when someone that knows me really well tells me something I say or do that I don't even realize! For instance, my boyfriend told me the other day that I clear my throat a lot when I'm angry...I didn't even realize that!
I sometimes wonder if animals feel the same way.. Do cats know how cute and adorable they can be? And can they recognise themselves in the mirror?
Sometimes I think this stuff and it just goes round and round in my head like a nitro charged ferris wheel and I start wondering to myself what if a zombie megalomaniac dwarf with a passion for goat riding, was locked in an epic struggle to free a siamese twin from it's fire breathing stepfather who is the King of Norway, with sexy results. Then I tell myself to stop and reach for some chocolate biscuits.
We have an ego, we make an ego for every one else and everyone else makes an ego for you. That is, your sense of self is bound to how you relate to others.
I actually meant to post a "whut?" totally different meaning https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VJDjnM0lfI"]YouTube - NEVER GONNA "SAY WHUT"
It's interesting to know how people read you. Some folks seem to be dead on the money for who you really are, others sort of read you as they wish you were or as they need/want you to be. I dress in jeans and Tee shirts year round. Dress up for me is new jeans and maybe a shirt with a collar. A lot of folks just assume a bluecollar job and a redneck attitude. Thats OK thats all they really need to know. Others think I'm a biker/hippie/artist whatever. People who know me well realize the clothes are simply what I'm comfortable in. I notice that I tailor my vocabulary to suit my intent given the people I'm with. Just by the choice of words people can and will alter their opinion of a person. It suits me well to be low key and under the radar. Another curious thing I've found is that people who I have interacted with on the phone often express surprise at seeing me in person. Many have said "I expected a professor type of person" whatever the hell that means.
Some like me, some don't. I don't think the whole of the people who know me have many strongly similar viewpoints about me. I'm sure some of the people who know me know a few of my peccadilloes. I didn't know I answered questions in my sleep until I moved in with girlfriends. But nah. I don't think anyone knows me like I do.
Different people see different sides. With students, I am patient as can be. With adults, I don't have a lot of patience for morons. I'm obviously a different person at work than at play.
