I found my keys finally, all is good. The world may commence. (a trip report)

Copying and pasting off word here, a few thoughts beforehand. Wow, and enjoy
This was certainly a life changing experience, but not enough time has lapsed to make sense of the big picture. I am in the insomnia stage, the dumbfuck feeling of coming back into a mind that was shattered over and over again, wow.

3:37 began insanity.
3:49 noticed my jaw started to feel tight, coming in slowly already, opened my eyes and I feel and things look different, just different, it feels different. I think im going to like this, I am.
3:50 I am. Hardly any residual anxiety.
4:01 Wow. Everything is dreamy, vision is like buzzy, shaky, vibrating, there is energy, I can feel a lot of load, but it feels ok, it’s nice. My face feels stretched and things feel loose as a goose. Everything is sort of twisting like morphing in the sides, bending, stretched from the ends. Tingly, good, loose, laughy, calm, slight head pressure. Maybe these headphones are putting too much pressure on me. They were.
4:19 feel kind of naseau, like I need to burp, feel kind of lightheaded, dizzy, shits crazy.
5:21 since then has been a race, smoked some cannabis. I feel very remarkable. Important, but new. Outside the tile cement squaring became its own intertwined circles, connecting to every other tile, radiating golden bright rainbow kaleidoscope phantasm. I aam so so much more knowledgeable, I will learn from this. And enjoy it, for the time it is coming. Nothing is quite like it. Something about that’s just about right. As I feel the forces pounding my fingers to play the words the will. Onto something that is becoming fragile, the keyboard, reality, is failing, I am failing at sanity. O dear god of delusion, I feel fucking fantastic, tuned in. buzzed in. the come up was a test, I passed, and I get to see the divine light and beauty in all things for then until the chemical washes away with time. Residual feelings of plunder all escaping through some exterior cool motif that I thee character in my life play, I am going insane right now for this time alone, I can do anything, that I could normally, and till know more. We have to admit, there are too many thoughts to be thunk, and while the time could be worthwhile spent in a hell, or I do, I go, do, something, thinking is a tool for everyone, for a situation, not to be spent freely unless you can admit to being completely sober. I DON’T KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE IN THE ENGLISH, LANGUAGE, NOR MATHMATTICALS.

(I have a very loose memory of what happened after I wrote that, most of it is just fragmented acid nonsense. But anywho,, so after this point I guess I came into my room and wrote all that down, somehow managed to lock myself out of my room. But this is where it gets really fucked up. This is the fucking moment of sanity/insanity. This was the trip: I lost my mind, Im insane, where are my keys, I am locked out of my room, I saw my ra and I am pretty sure he knows I am insane. And all sorts of other crazy things. Basically introspection acid paranoia bad trip completely freaking out as I stumble into a friends room full of mostly people I know sort of, and don’t know at all all strung out from a bad trip trying to get away from the ra who is chasing me down the hall! AHA! It’s all very hard to know what happened in my head, but what happened outside of it did not resonate with it all, it did not match up like in sobriety, oh wait, I took 3 hits of fire lucy, that’s why.. This confused the shit out of me.)

5:40 the childs mind, now being taken hold by the adult mind.
7:41 Several hardships since then, so much SO MUCH has happened inside my own mind, but there is no one here to share it with, im just suffocating myself because im too



I just came to it here. I know now. I am no different, I am who I am,

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What happened, I got lost. What I did wrong? I tripped alone, with no one else. I had no variation of a trip sitter until after the full blown effects. At which point anyone who bothered to sit and talk with me during my being lost in the small dorm building area of my campus was my trip sitter, whoever that was didn’t know it. And I am sure thankful I have some good friends. THANK GOD!

This has been such a profound experience, but to be honest, I am scared shitless, next time I dare to, (which will be a long time) I will MAKE SURE OF EVERY LITTLE DETAIL,
2, have someone or more to trip with, close friends! VERY IMPORTANT
3, sitter, preferably sober if I dare to the most potent psychedelic known to me in those quantities. 4
4, phone, wallet, keys, car locked, room locked, not a care in the world. VERY IMPORTANT.
5, blahblahblah take responsibility for yourself!

The facts:
This bad trip, which wasn’t bad at all in retrospect, was caused because I had nothing to do. Hmmmm, that’s sort of important NOT TO DO.
Take acid and you will learn much too much, but that’s why we do it =)
Also it is now 5:43, I'm still thinking, love to hear what you guys think. I'll be thinking about it, till then. PEACE!