has anyone ever been like this?

Im in such a wierd place right now. Man Ive really hit rock bottom. Im feeling so awful .I WENt to bed
at 9.30 not at all like me, and i literally broke down. I had to get
up just now and come down here and write this. Man i just broke. Ive
been crying for like 2 hours now continuously but ive really not
been at all happy fro 3 monthes. And its not school thats getting to
me, its just everything. It feels like ive been hanging on by a
thread for ages now and the thread is broken and i dont know what to
do to make it better.
I went to the school therepist today to try and sort some shit out.
She thinks after like a 4hour session, that i need to see a more
qualified therepist, adn that ihave problems with alcahol, my mother
and my self image is attrocious. I see myself as nothing and ive let
my mothers problems with alcahol affect me bitterly, something she
said which is known as a dry drunk, which she said explains why i
never drink. She said Alcahol has affected me deeply, adn being the
daughter of an alcoholic has forced me into an alcaholic sober
status, having the mental deficiencis of an alcaholic and attaching
myslef to people and idols and almost making them gods.
She said that she thinks i should go on some medication but ill need
to see a specalist first.
My dad she said being the innocent party in my childhood, has led me
to detach myself to males, and not have as much respect for females
as i should have, because of my lack of respect of my mother
This really brought up some shit i didnt want to think about. I
didnt want to go back to that place..sigh.
its wierd to just unload to people i dont know so well, but i feel like icant talk to anyone. i feel so alone. is it just me?
ciara

 

Living with a drunk for a parent can really screw a person up. There's support groups for spouses and kids of alcoholics that may do you some good. Need more info, pm me

 

atleast you are going in the right direction to sorting through ya shit...be happy you are starting the path to self-realisation...it will be hard, but you'll be better off for it

 

parents can screw their kids up beyond belief if I feel like I am barely holding on and like I am going to lose it I do the fake it untill you make it thing which sometimes works and sometimes makes it worse and makes me do the whole uncontrolable crying thing. ya know what never mind on the faking it thing it does make things worse just deal with it now you'll be better for it later on.

 

Have you ever heard of Al Anon? It's a support for people who have alchoholic family members. They helped me out a lot when I was in middle school dealing with my dad coming home drunk pretty much every night.
http://www.al-anon-alateen.org/

 

alnon...no ive never heard of it...i think its about itme i did something about it so i might check that out., and yes lyndsay i know all about the fake it until you make it way, and it certainly made things worse for me.

 

I think there has to be some kind of problem with the kid's psyche though (no offense). It seems like women have problems based on their parents more than guys do (maybe it's partly gender, too). My household was super fucked when I was little and I have no problems today (except a little bit of insomnia).
You might not want to listen to me though. I just sorted my opinions while typing, they still could be valid though. Damn I should be sleeping right now.