I am outta methadone again, had 30 7.5 percs, but they never last that long, and I blew most of my money on that, now Im pretty much broke and with drawlin til monday morning? I first started taking vics 5/500 and they actually did it for me for awhile, then went up to percocet and now methadone, which is horrible, well the withdrawls are horrible, the pills are great! it just sucks I can never make these last 30 fucking days, and I always end up blowing loads of money on the street, but right now, the only thing that my source has is Opana 40mg for $65. each, but Im broke so cant even get any of them! Anymore when I go thru withdrawl, I cannot fucking function, cant even get my ass to get outta bed hardly, it is that deabilitating for me, cant really sleep that good and keep waking up like every hour. it really sucks but have done this every month for the past 5-6 years now and it gets worse every time! anyone else as bad off as me? Im not sure what to do anymore, Ive been thru rehab a few times, but as soon as I get out, I have drugs that day, I know I will never get off this crap nad it will likel kill me one day, eitherr thru suicide or od.
I been thru it all. I have horrible withdrawals starting about 24-48 hours after my use. I couldnt take it anymore so I got prescribed to suboxone which will save your life. Id highly recommend that if you really want to get off opiates.
go through it every month, my meds never last 30 days, prolly only 3=6 times have my meds lasted as long as they should in prolly 2 years.....no matter how many times i tell myself to make them last.......so i feel ya...i can make a 40mg methadone wafer last about 3-4 days, and can get through a day on 30-45mg of oxy with out w/d......but as soon as they get refilled its off to the races!!!!! so i feel your pain, hang in there, things were better when my wife was managing my meds, but i would still go in her purse and pinch a pill or three from fiday, on monday, then a few from thursday on tuesday, yada yada yada, lol....
if the universe is infinite - there is an infinite chance that an infinite number of people are going 'through the same'. and it's happening now, a second after now, a minute later - tomorrow, next year and on and on and on. but you take opiates, you know all this already. twice.
well things are alot better now, I just got a $40 stamp of brown powder, had to borrow money from my ex tho!!! and to get her to do it, I have to pay her back $60. but its worth it!!
Best thing to do is suck it up and go through the withdrawals. Since you are on heroin I would advise drying out in a clinic. The problem with methadone and suboxone is you are still addicted, just on M or S. If you dry out not only will you never wanna go through that shit again but you will be off the shit completely, physically anyway. Mental cravings will never go away. They will subside to an extent but you will always have cravings every now and again. That's where pure willpower comes in. Goodluck to you anyway. I know being addicted is no way to live. Been there, done that.
