starlight - 8 tab ego death

This report also serves as a warning to those looking at high doses, be aware, during this experience my mind completely, physically separated from my body leaving only automated reactions in the real world whilst I ventured on, these actions turned put not to be pleasant as although it was the greatest and most enlightening experience ever (also my first trip that didn't go bad) my body was insulting my best friends and being fairly aggressive, I put this down to the fact that my friends never see negative aspects of my character quite simply because when around them I feel none, but in the grand disorder of things in order for me to being order on myself they had to experience that side of me in order for me to be gifted with such a blissful experience, and best of all I think it has formed even stronger bonds despite how west it was coming round to see my mate looking angrily at me after just crying over the greatness and beauty that is within all humanity.

Enough of a rant, I hope you enjoy reading my experience

Okey, so I've arrived at a friends house and the first thing we do is get the gear out and drop before immediately preparing all rooms for what is to be a spectacular night.
That night I ingested 7.66 approximately 700 - 800 micrograms of ganesha's.
I was up very quickly about 20 mins, as the net of my imagination is cast out across my vision built of my recurring neon purple DNA fractal pattern I realise that unlike my other experience this visual throbbed and gleamed with energy in a similar sense to DMT.
Yet I knew that this was laying the foundations for what was to come. Within a short space of time an energy ripples swiftly from head to toe in a shudder, over come by everything being so full of life, warping the space with amazement, excitement and above all, complete content for those closest to me, I sit back in awe. At this point my friend f1 walks in the room and sits next to me, we look into each others eyes and hug and he says "I will be besides you for the beginning and the end"
I turn to the side to select some songs, and notice that my mp3 was very much like a filing cabinet of information, but what seemed most strange was that the information it accessed was inside my head, the artist represented the section I accessed and the song represented the individual file, I decided the best place to start was DNA - think different.
And at that point out of the corner of my eye, like a record skipping forwards and backwards as I looked up and down the social evolution moves along its orbit (friends move around in what appears a mechanical, next along manner) and the rotating collision of personalities occur in the passing of fate as the ultimate tool is born "the moment" (as in, a moment of time).
Sitting back and taking a deep breath I take "a moment" to take in my first environmental discovery, satisfied that I was "thinking different" and now feeling prepared to venture forth "the beginning" unfolds, as DNA - basic instincts comes on, then with a flickering ripple motion of the fingers I unravel "the moment" before me and tap into "the big society" were I unlock the first step towards my goal, 2 beautiful gifts we have as humans, the ability to love and be loved, and the thirst for knowledge and understanding.
I change the song, and with that dip into a new folder, the widdler - origin, and just like that before me I see a white spec within complete blackness and as I get closer and closer a singularity is revealed to me.
Born from a singularity the universe, a grand biological firework display begins its reoccuring cycle for natural order. Sending Uncomprehendable masses of star dust in all directions the first steps in the initial event for achieving order take place.
I notice that everything now has a pure glow to it, an intense white light now burns in my heart as the evolution of the universe unfolds like dominoes falling before me, a small rock of no particular significance takes my attention, lieing in the distance it sits peacefully, but it special, apparently quiet it hides one of the universes secrets, its mechanism for restoring order, this rock has life, this rock is earth.
Now the moment is chosen it begins to create revolutions in time, revealing the entire evolution of earth up until the present day through periods and seeing animals I have never dreamed of, and the universe's overall subsequent destruction of its failed attempt at initialising the restoration of order.
Then, during a revolution in time further down the evolutionary cycle something extra ordinary occurred, instinct had become of higher importance, but that isn't the strangest of all. One species glitched ahead of the revolution, there may possibly be a mistake in the grand scheme of things, however, man is born and bestowed with the most important gift of all, the thirst for knowledge and understanding, this glitch had become the universe's seed, a greater desire for order had ascended.
The moment now took a different direction, for the linear intentions to order had been stretched, bent and entangled by man's, self inflicted, induced reduction in capacity to accept understanding, the ignorance of intelligent.
With greater knowledge and understanding come great responsibility, why? Because people with knowledge know more and can manipulate the blind, because of the virus in place, society was created. The intelligent inflicted order on their own, allowing disorder to spread, perhaps evolution has occurred too quickly for the mind to develop?..but! We still have time to realise despite time rapidly running out.
The fight to bring down society burns on in our hearts, as we fight for universal order and now the starlight in my heart grows to a vibrant shining yellow radiating beautifully.
Captured by the system I am trying to help I am branded crazy, and at that point see an evil in man so terrible and rooted in that I must take the secret to unified order to my grave, humanity can not restore order because it has shot itself in the foot, the universe will undoubtedly need to fully reboot, the infection within the mechanism runs deeply.
Or so it seemed. Whilst the greater majority of the matrix's biological robots reside in blissful ignorance we knew that for complete order the universe needs to be brought to an existence of inifinity. (Breakdown time and build the moment).
I had now been infected by the virus that allows natural disorder to exist and now it was me preventing our own progression.
It was slowly eating me away, and the stardust that gave birth to me bad begun to grow, like the universe it was now expanding at an unmeasurably alarming rate, expanding like a dieing star, the core burning intensly in my heart was gradually becoming more unstable and reaching greatest disorder, and like a dieing star this radiating light was atomically layered by the constituent segments on my ego.
At the core existed complete love, bliss and enlightenment,
Level 1 - paranoia yellow/white
Level 2 - social barrier yellow
Level 3 - loves. Orange
Level 4 - anxieties. Red
Level 5 - friends. Purple
Level 6 - family. Blue/white
Level 7 - myself. Blue
As the star expanded out to myself my friend f1 returns to the room and I realise that this is "the end" becoming a blue giant the instability of my ego reached a phenomenal level, coming to terms with "the end" I embrace humanity and reflect on my life upon which moment I learn the greatest gift the universe unfortunately created - death. As death gives us a concept of time (providing us with an end point of reference)
And just like that in my final moment the infection is defeated as I realise my ways and admit them, revaling in my own humility, and I bestow the gift of order to man by sacrificing myself to allow the universe to exist infinatly.
Overwhelmed by the greatness of my own heart, unable to accept that I would ever give up my own life, that even in my final hour I could muster enough strength to let go of such a powerful gift.
Greed had finally been defeated, and as I let go of the gift, the star in my heart briefly collapsed in under the ego before exploding outwards burning and tearing apart every fibre of my being from skin to bone at great pressure and temperature.
At infinity before me god steps fourth, explaining to me the grand design as the final dimensional clicks and the gateway between disorder and infinite existence close the stardust of my heart reforms igniting a new, polished, stronger structure to harbour my mind, with the love of my best friends forever burning passionately within. Complete enlightenment glittering down upon me as love for humanity fills my soul like the tides.
Prepare from the beginning
Experience the end.

 

probably one of the best reports i've ever read

 

Thank you, there is so much missing from the experience though that I just cant explain for some reason xD

 

Interesting note : 2 minor events in this trip (were visually i was in completely different place to where i was tripping) later occured in real life down to the same smallest detail
And also since this trips ive drempt of things happening which happen up to a week after the initial dream

 

Very nice read. 7 blue shivas . . . i cannot imagine. I cannot even put pen to paper about 3 shivas, and that was raw nuclear celebration

 

I think I got a contact high from reading that, some of it went over my head but it read pretty intense.

 

Amazing and very detailed report. I was so stoked reading this. It sounds like you were ready for it and wanted it. I'm glad you had such a cosmic experience.

 

Wow... that was a very intense read! .. I loved every moment of it. Glad you got to experience something as beautiful as what you have described. :2thumbsup:

 

now thats a real acid trip! great work man

 

Thanks to think that's just the story with my friends and relating emotions removed.from it, i wrote this on afterglow and is the only trip i can remmber prrfectly from start to finish its just too difficult to get that level of detail in, my friend also experienced ego death that night in the form of compurter binary, 8 levels to both egos before reaching infinity

 

(Sorry for the spam, i just keep remembering things you may be interested in)

If anyone has read my other trip reports you will know i though my first trip was ego death and had alot of confusion around that, since that trip i had 8 more trips before my ego death, I came to the conclusion on a nice 0.25g of crystal mdma thats what occurred is, my first trip I acheived ego loss, the following trips i must have spent rebuilding my ego and "figuring things out" then I learnt that the ego I haf built was shit and it was destroyed by its own weight.
I just thought its interesting how significant the number 8 is...

can anyone else relate to 8 and the ego or is that just coincidence? xD

 

My innards shake when I read this report. :2thumbsup:

 

well there is timothy leary's 8 circuit model of consciousness

 

^ Oooh maybe onto some pattern of synchronicity here

Great post, btw, brought me some solid hope

 

I enjoyed reading your experience! I could relate to some of the parts for your trip.. sounds like you had a very intense experience!

 

Fantastic! if we got this much pleasure from reading your trip report, imagine what the trips must have been like.

Excellent and thanks for the detailed report:sunny:

 

Wow. Great read, great experience, kudos. I know where you're coming from on the whole "rebuilding" of the ego. I am constantly re-learning my role while tripping and for the days afterward I feel like a child again, the world and I are born new.. I guess you're probably in the same boat huh?

 

I've not really tripped much since but I would imagine so

 

I have read about half way, the content sounds awesome. Please use paragraphs or something next time, because I'm having a really hard time reading this as is.

 

This was so awesome that I just licked my computer monitor just in case.