Will be vaporizing/smoking roughly .06g of Spice in a few minutes out of a homemade pipe called "The Key V2" Going to play some shpongle quietly and lay back in my lovesac. i have been having some trouble breaking through lately, but i have a good feeling about this one. i just need to clear my mind which is very hard for me to do.:2thumbsup:
sub breakthrough. dont think i vaporized it all in my 2 hits, gotta perfect it but i like this method alot. Alot of colors and depth perception. the feeling of being some where. for the first time i saw the crysthma (spell check) was really cool, it opened up for me. There where 2 people again. more human looking this time. and the background keept changing we would be on a lake sun set or in the forest, or in the city. IT was crazy. i defiantly liked it.
on a side note i have been clean from opiates for a week and 2 days. and i think some credit is due to the dmt experiences i have had over the past week or so. Defiantly helped me get over the mental bump, which in my case is the hardest part.
I admire you for that. I have seen too many people with with addiction yet never try anything to stop it. Been through it twice myself, once with coke and more recently with heavy opiates. The Opiates were quite worse with the damn withdrawal. But now I'll still do a RC 30 every now and again but that memory still hangs in the back of my mind. Keeps my willpower strong.
yeah so you can understand, when i started bootin again i realized it was getting out of hand...again. so i now know that i cannot just dabble in opiates, which is kinda sad but its probably for the better anyways, pretty much the same reason why i stopped doing blow. probably will do hallucinogenics for a while tho
btw enjoy your trip im sure youll be writing a first time trip report so i look forward to reading it peace
I'm going through the same thing, I have almost 3 weeks sober. Just, remember that the glow doesn't last forever, it can help get the ball rolling but it's up to you to keep it in motion. It's easy not to take opiates when your smoking DMT, it's not easy not to take opiates when you have no DMT and life suddenly gets overwhelming and you begin to suffer from anxiety and depression. Good luck friend, we quit almost at the same time, if anyone knows what your going through it's me, I've been struggling with dope, fentanyl, methadone, oxy, etc for just under 9 years and finally saw that it is possible to feel happiness again, like we did when we were children.
yeah i understand what your saying. if i dont have the dmt i will want the opiates, but they are such differnet drugs that i cant really belive that i am just substituting one drug for the other. because they are 2 very different effects. Not to mention i smoke pot about every day so ill be gettin high on that and not opiates. so far so good. i am going to try to keep it up, im not perfect, i may not stay clean. but i can sure try like hell, thanks for the support dude~!
