sup guys i have been using opiates on and off since i was about 18/19 years old. i am 23 now and just recently decided to get clean (again) im not a very heavy user but was defiantly spending to much money and time on it. I wouldn't do more than 2 30mg RC in a day. but it was getting to the point where i was puttin them in my arm again so i could get the most out of it. I hate puttin shit in my arm, not cuz it hurts but its the ultimate definition of a junkie. Which i dont want to be. i stayed clean from opiates in the winter for 2 or 3 months, then i started to dabble back into it. in a few months i was right back to scraping change together to buy a pill and puttin it in a needle. a recent dmt trip made me think long and hard about my actions and i decided to put it down cold turkey. its been exactly 2 weeks today since i have done any kind of opiate and its not so bad. I still smoke my weed, and do my hallucinogenics but at least im not spending 30$ a day on pills. I just want to encourage any one out there that is thinking about getting clean to just try it. you need to make the first step, its a huge one but once you do you will be happy you did. i didnt need suboxone to come off but some peoples addiction were worse than mine. Get yourself on suboxone or subtex if you need it. put the pills down you dont need them and i know if your thinking about getting clean you already know you cant do opiates forever, your either going to OD or get arrested. just needed to share my story with some people. Also i have not had a cigarette in 4 days and i think some of it is due to the stopping of opiates. Hope this can help someone!
Fuck yeah they can, I stopped smoking cigs for a couple months last year. So much extra money in my pocket it was ridiculous. Sadly I started again. I want to put them down for good. Its just so habitual it makes it hard to.
i have a feeling i wont be able to stay as strong holding off on the butts as i can with the opiates. i still enjoy smoking cigarettes, but i do know they burn a hole in my wallet and my lungs. then again 4 days is the longest ive gone with out smoking since i was in jail (even then we would get them about once a week if not more) i have not had the urge to smoke one since Friday night... Hopefully it wont change when i get drunk lol.
Some say hardest addiction to kick known to man. Im thinking its probably a close 2nd only to Vagina!!!
... I sound like a similar user as you. been doing them for about 4 years, off and on. the highest my tolerence ever was was about 100mg a day.. then I got clean for about a year or so, then recently started using again around christmas. at first just casually and now it's daily and I'm back to spending hundreds a week on bills. fml with me it's always like 'I'll get clean tomorrow'.. and it hasn't happened yet. when ever I attempt to I'm just fucking miserable, irritable, depressed. even going to work while getting clean is unbearable. good luck to you. hope you stay clean!
thanks i know im over the mental addiction because i got a free rc 30 for giving my buddy a ride some where and i held it over night and sold it the next day/. i hope you can stay strong my man
I know how you feel. I had the same problem with coke and benzos. The withdrawls were awful! I would scream in my room and in the shower from the pain. I have also been a daily heavy user of opiates. I shot-up heroin once or twice a day every day. I realized that my tolerance was getting higher and higher, and I also realized that eventually, I would shoot a fatal dose up my arm. I was burnt out. I never had any withdrawal from opiates, I had no problem quitting them, I don't know why, but the coke and benzos were really hard to quit, so I feel ya. But, hang in there and props for quitting. By the way, I am clean now as well, I don't even drink or smoke weed. totally straightedge, and I feel great. Work out and I feel like Superman. You can do it!
well I'm not a man but thanks! today I'm down to 10mg, sooooooo I'm doing well PS awesome sig, best floyd song imo
Woo. I've long extolled the virtues of DXM, though I consider it's overindulgence rather bad. But it does seem to have had quite the ideal psychedelic effect on you. Out of curiosity, what's your experience, both in chemical and dose, with other psychedelics, and with what relation(timewise) to your opiate use?
Psychedelics have really made me cut down on my opiate consumption. I have been through withdrawals and fell off on them before but promised I would never go there again but I still did them regularly just not enough to induce withdrawal symptoms passed the watery eye thing but since I started using psychedelics it's a once in a blue moon thing. Congrats and good luck! Psychedelic enlightenment aside it takes a strong person to kick that habit. My sister and my brother are addicts, it makes me happy to read about people getting clean and staying clean because they want to and not because probation says so. <Hug>
Congratulations on everybody thats working hard to get and stay clean. Its awesome to hear. everyday and addict stays clean is a miracle in my eyes. It will feel so good once you start reaping the rewards of straying away from your addiction. slowly everything you lost in the process will start to come back in your life. You will just be sitting around one day wondering how you are so happy without the drug that once ruled you. Choose to be free. You can do it!!! ive been off opiates since december and i am trying to quit smoking cigs now as well!
Yeah coming off is prolly the hardest thing ive ever done. I recently had a relapse but I couldnt enjoy it because i was on suboxone. Now I have never been soo confident in getting clean and staying clean. Just not worth it in the long run. My life has changed and I have never been more happy. I just got in a relationship for the first time in like 4 years, spend more time with my family, and save money! ITS WORTH IT.
Congrats on stayin' clean. It's been sooo hard for me. I have not used heroin for 3 weeks, i'm past the physical, but my brain hurts for some H right now. It's kind of crazy because it feels like my brain is in physical pain. I was addicted to injecting coke and heroin speedballs, so it's even harder for me. I was just wondering, do the cravings eventually go away all together if you stay clean long enough, say two years or longer? I am hoping and praying to God that I won't have these cravings for the rest of my life, that would be Hell.
From my experience they will either gradually fade if you don't do any work to help them fade. But if you work to get them out of your life they will become less and less apparent in your daily thinking. You have to surround yourself with things that fun and healthy. whatever that may be for you. and work to change your way of thinking and not just thing about the good times and how good it felt. But think about the hardships and how much it cost you in the end and why you are getting off of them. The cravings will fade faster if you get a support group and start focusing on other things than getting high on opiates. Maybe even have an intense psychedlic experience with someone who wants you to get clean. Find the meaning of life outside of addicting highs. I have only been off of them 5 or 6 months and that is really a short while and i am still very capable of relapse if i put myself in the wrong situation. best advice is to STAY as farrr away that you can from people using opiates and coke for your situation. I wish you the best of luck. You just have to quit telling yourself its your last time. Because as long as your saying that it won't be. YOU CAN DO IT. just focus on staying clean TODAY and thats it. Just today.
so its been like over 2 months , i feel better some days, other days i feel like the day is draggin, some nights i sleep better than other, some days are funner than others but i have to say that i am happy that i can say no to one of my friends handing me a straw and telling me to sniff a "cocktail" of opiates and benzos for free. it takes alot to be able to say you can do that, and most people dont even admit that they cant say no to it. but i used to not be able to and now i can so i pride myself on that, congrats on any one else who is keeping clean from the opiates or good luck to any one who is thinking of getting off the wagon!
Ya, keep up the hard work. don't set yourself up to do a "cocktail" on one of your bad days. Cuz i know their is a few days i don't know if would have stayed clean if it was right their in front of me...for free.
