Please don't be too harsh on an amateur!

So I don't know where to start, but I can tell you now this is going to be a ridiculously long message because I am OCD and can't help but include EVERY detail. If you can bare reading this whole thing, I'm very grateful

I'm new to this so please don't be too harsh with my questions b/c I know they have all been asked before, but like I said, I'm OCD and would like to here the answer anyway!

I'd like to start off by being completely honest about my situation. I have never been a heavy drinker or drug user, but I have had a very rough couple of months so I began to drink a lot for about two months. One night...I think probably almost a month ago, I got some horrifying news and I did something incredibly stupid and unlike myself. I got more wasted than I have ever been (would fall down most times I tried to stand up), and feeling like my life was completely falling apart I grabbed a knife which unfortunately was within my reach and I began to cut my self VERY badly.

I was taken to the ER and after giving me 21 staples I was sent to a detox facility (just protocol). I stayed a week there and due to patient negligence, I developed an abscess in my arm so they took the staples out, and for some reason didn't do anything about the wound and a little while later I heard it tear open and muscle tissue popped outside of my arm.

FINALLY, I was then prescribed two weeks worth of 20mg oxycodones (taken every 4 hours). Anyway, here are my questions.
I am now out of my oxycodone and am in a lot of pain because the wound did not heal as planned. The problem is that I want more high strength oxycodone (I know, me and the rest of the world.) I won't lie, I definitely do enjoy them. The main reason I want the Oxycodone is absolutely for the pain. It keeps me up at night, makes every thing a chore, and I am in extreme discomfort.

So in my specific case, how should I go about getting more? I had such a big team of doctors at the hospital and don't know which I had. They gave me a surgeons number for a follow up, but the writing isn't legible, and I cannot find out through the hospital. I am young, and as we all know, it isn't the easiest thing for someone my age to get high strength painkillers. Where am I most likely to get REAL painkillers (not a few vics)? Would urgent care be a bad place to do this? I don't know how to find a doctor who won't be too scared to prescribe me pain meds. Will they be more likely to give them to me bc my wound can be seen so they know I really am injured? Where can I find this doctor!

I truly am still in a lot of pain, as I cut very close to the bone, going from upper bicep to shoulder muscle...a lot of muscle tissue and fat tissue to saw through before reaching bone. I am even willing to buy them on the street if I have to, but I have no connections whatsoever, and I've heard they have a very high street value.
I know these are the same old noob questions, but I'd really like some ideas for my specific case. If you've read this, thank you so much.

 

to tell me what parts of this (most I'm sure) are unnecessary crap. Greatly appreciated!

 

I think most urgent care/walk-in clinic type places have policies against prescribing narcotics. Your best bet is probably just to see your GP and let him/her know what's going on. If you're really hurting you might be able to head over to ER and see if you can get anything.

 

Please don't be too harsh on an amateur!.

...wounds?...you think a doctor is going to prescribe 40s for wounds?...

i dont fucking think so.....unless you have active 3rd degree burns...or fresh surgical sites you will not be getting 40s and 80s for a wound that isnt healing properly...

.doctors know how much a wound hurts...not much btw......you are a classic drug seeker and likely destined to buying hillbilly heroin off dudes on the street..

.sorry bro...wish i had better news for you

learn to roll doobies

 

i would stay away from addictive substances if i were you, at least until you are more mentally stable.

 

I want to start off the right foot in these, there's a reason I said don't be too harsh. I feel uncomfortable and humiliated discussing what I did, but I made a point to discuss what happened as to start off being COMPLETELY honest—mainly for that exact reason.

When I look this stuff online, I see a lot of people who say that they really need it ,etc. Most of them are obviously fake. I never asked for 40mg or 80mg pills, just the 20mgs that have helped me a great deal, If my injury isn't serious, why would a doctor prescribe me 2 weeks of 20 mgs? (of course I could be lying...I'm not but there's no way to be sure). I haven't bought drugs off the street since I switched to a new school for my junior year in high school.As of this moment, I am without a doubt not a junkie. Besides, can't you give me some advice supposing I am telling the truth?

 

just try dxm its amazing

 

i am going to just focus on the problem at hand, ur injury has not healed as planned, and ur medication is empty, and you have a quite visible serious injury. I would go to the ER or Urgent care like u stated, take the bottles they gave you for proof, it cant hurt you the bottles can only help ur case, should you not have the bottles go to the pharmacy where u got them filled and ask for a print out of the Rx's u got filled there, take either to the ER and tell them that you are in severe pain, and are in agony around the clock...Other than that, i wouldnt know what else to do.....good luck to ya man!!!!

 

sip some robo listen to some hip hop what i always do

 

I agree with PC. the ER is where you need to be. And if it were me, Id go back to the same hospital that you went to when the incident occured. Reason for this is two fold. They will easily be able to get access to the information about the procedure you had that night, to include Meds provided, Dr.'s who saw you. Secondly, THEY ARE THE ONES WHO FUCKED UP YOUR ARM IN THE FIRST PLACE.
Wish ya luck but remember one thing, I know you said you were in pain, but be forwarned, ER nurses and Dr.s can spot a drug seeker a mile away!!!

 

and i happen to concur with Bottle, mosdef go to the same hospital.....for the exact reasons he mentioned, with all that in your favor, you should have no problems at all.....

 

Stop being such a pussy. If you can't handle people disagreeing or saying no, you're never gonna enjoy the Internet.

People have given you tons already.

Such as me, when I told you to stop being a pussy, or MaryJBlaze when she said:

 

Yea Go Back To The Same Doc Who Gave U The First Script!!!!
And The 20's That U Got Are ER Correct??? They Only Make The IR In 15mg and 30mg right???

 

Duck, I am trying hard not to stoop to your level, but I feel physically shitty and don't want to go out. Everything you said was ridiculous. You're clearly just trying to sound tough with all your shit-talking, which is funny because you called me a pussy...You're the one sitting in your room and actually taking the time to write this.

There's no truth to what you said about not being able to "handle" people disagreeing with me, in fact I welcome it, but this isn't a matter of opinions. He told me I'm a junkie based on the few paragraphs I wrote....Honest to god, when I imagine what you're like, I imagine someone who constantly needs to prove he is tough b/c he's insecure and can't find a woman BUT other than me proving a point by telling what I think you probably are, I could be completely wrong. Maybe you're a pimp, but regardless, telling you that you don't get girls isn't a valid opinion b/c there would be absolutely no way of knowing this, just like he has no idea whether I'm a junkie.

Why did you actually take the time to insult me when I haven't done anything to you. I didn't do anything wrong...you told me that "If you can't handle people disagreeing or saying no, you're never gonna enjoy the Internet." I should probably take your advice on this, considering the internet must be your life. No other person would actually take the time they could be using in the real world on insulting somebody online for asking for advice (other than myself b/c I am bed-ridden. I asked for advice first and then people gave it to me. When I'd written that, that was BEFORE I got the advice.

To sum this thing up, you actually got so mad at my non-offensive post that you actually felt the need to cuss me out? Imagine if you were outside or at a party with a group of people and some guy asked for advice. Would you start yelling for know reason calling him a pussy. Them be fightin' words boy! You don't know me and you try to verbally rape me? Anyway, like I said, you prefer living in the internet, b/c here you can be whoever you want to be. Either you get in physical fights everyday for freaking out on strangers which is highly unlikely, OR, you prove me right, and you do act like a tough guy online and talk-shit to strangers. Who's the pussy now?
Anyway, I'm not butt-hurt, just extremely bored and you making a fool out of yourself allowed me to rant and blow some steam off.

Please, instead of actually taking the time to call me names because you don't like my post, just skip it, and go to the next thread. I'll do the same.

p.s.acting like a prick won't get you anywhere in life, it just shows people how trashy you are. You could really benefit from some social skills.

 

I just got these replies now, but luckily I thought last minute that I should bring the pill bottle to urgent care...turned out to be helpful. Doc said that it somehow looked like it might be getting infected again. He said he wished he could write another oxy script, but that he tries not to write any scripts for PKs let alone oxy's, but he said that I need to see another surgeon and he gave me a few days worth of vicodin ES. He also mentioned that docs would have given me plenty of PKs for my wound 10 years ago, but nowadays with all of the flagging...

anyway, thanks a lot

 

No, I was trying to give you a reality check; or to be more proper, help the good people of this forum give you one; and give MaryJ props for giving you the best one so far.

Yes, it is.

Who the hell is 'he'?

You know, this whole rant is just proving me right.

Someone called you a pussy on the Internet, and you wrote a 505 word, 2707 character reply.
When I copied it into Word, to do the word count, it was nearly a page.

I'm gonna stop reading now

 

Don't pay attention to this guy^^ lol if you can't get shit. I am not even kidding. Get some whip-its or cafe creams or whatever, some crackers, some ballons. It will take your mind off it while your just doing nothing. It won't help when your up and moving about but its good for when alll your doing is sittin and concentrating on the pain. good luck man. it will heal soon enough

 

to make this simple i have a crushed neck and back and am prescribed very high opiates i get no pleasure whatsoever.anyway sometimes my meds dont even work.i went in by ambulence to the er and have gotten i.v pain relievers.they will most likely give you meds for that visit but not a script to take home

 

Uh, read what he did to himself.

OP, how about using this opportunity to improve your resistance to pain? I've had a couple of nasty painful wounds, not quite as bad as yours I don't think but still quite nasty. Even in hospital I refused painkillers, I'm not even sure if the work tbh, especially on wounds. The reason I refused them is because they constipate me and I find that is a worse torture than pain in the limbs... Anyway, drug dependency by choice is an extremely weak life choice, you disgust me with your unmanliness. Occupy your mind and body and you will heal in no time. Also, make sure you move that wound. It may hurt at first but you will find it will "warm up" and become less painful and more mobile for short periods then longer periods in no time. You could also try some natural methods, try seearching for those, a lot are suprisingly easy to get hold of. Next time I try pain-killing I want to try slugs. Did you know that native Americans would keep slugs in their mouths when they had tooth ache?

I don't want to hurt your feelings but man the fuck up. Count on yourself, not on anybody or anything else. It's only pain. ONLY PAIN. You are (probably) well on the road to recovery. Besides, do you really feel you deserve extra medical resources after inflicting this upon yourself? Maybe the pain will prevent you from doing something like this again, like the huge scar on my left hand prevents me from ever again convincing my friend to go on a drunken motorbike ride with me on the back, in fact I think a lot more before doing dumb shit now. Use it as a learning experience.