A little guidance please? <3

Please no unneccessary judgements, but.

I feel like I've hit a 'roadblock' in my life and there's a few things I need to figure out, everything feels pointless, pessimistic and cluttered. I feel like I need a few questions answered that only I can answer and a new perspective so to speak...

Tonight, I was planning on figuring out what I needed answering in the first place, being honest with myself about what I can do, sitting out in the garden and meditating all night. I'm not religious, but I want some guidance (more from within, if that makes sense?). I'm scared, either that I'll get it or that I won't.

I don't know what I'm looking for... Support, advice, experiences, etc?

Edit: Like, I remember when I came incredibly close to death. Myself, the doctors, thought I was to die that night. It was almost as if I came out of the experience 'reborn'.

 

I feel the same way atm. It's very hard to just sit with yourself and figure out what you believe. I know how it feels to be unsure as to which path you are following, and while I can't give you any practical advice on how to find your way I jut wanted to say that you are not alone.xx

 

cut things down to the bare essentials, i would advise. what do you HAVE to do to survive? maybe go take a look at 'Maslow's hierarchy of needs':

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow's_hierarchy_of_needs

(the critics of maslow make me laugh...they are evidently not logical people, therefore, they do not understand what maslow was saying; perhaps they are also from hive mind societies, which increases the distance of clarity-or perhaps they just have the need to criticize someone else, not having the ability to think originally for themselves...eh? what's that you say? you are thinking about all this? it's pointless, isn't it? )

anything beyond survival is 'choice'. choices...this is somewhat of an odd day for me. i had the thought earlier 'maybe many of our choices not related to survival don't matter much.'.

the two extremes...

1. there is no meaning to life

2. life has meaning

between those two is a lifetime of meditation