Phew. I just took salvia for the 2nd time ever, still giggling a lot as I write this. I had taken a smallish hit of salvia before when my friend brought some round to my house for me to try. I did it standing up in my back garden with my hands full. Not ideal but I was overawed with the experience, everything I looked at, all of the garden and all of the houses in the street all became parallel, that's the only way I could describe it, every line every angle EVERYTHING was parallel, then I tried to pass my friend the pipe and ended up looking at myself from an arm's reach out to my right and above. Brief but very interesting, also a little bit unnerving. It's true what they say about Salvia, you have to respect it. It's not the sort of shit you can think you have control of, the control centres of the brain seem pretty much absent, at least until after you have done something stupid. So anyways, I purchased some today and thought I'd try it out, just make sure it works. After my first experience I had tried it again (also alone) but thankfully didn't really know what I was doing and failed to hold the smoke in long enough, I feel I would have done something stupid, looking back, as I was in my friend's house surrounded by his stuff. It works. Can't wait to do some with my friend tomorrow and then at a gathering at the weekend. I'm staying in my friend's shed at the moment, out I went and closed the door. So, I chilled myself out a little, cleared my bed, weighed out a little bit of 10x, not even enough to tip the scales to 0.1 but from reading the dosages I thought it best not to over do it on my own. I felt ready. I put some in the bowl of my crappy pipe and inhaled and held. I wasn't counting on the inhale but it was defenitely more than 20 seconds. The smoke was very harsh and hot but I had heard from my friend that you need the stuff as hot as possible to get the effects from the smoke, so I stuck it out. Before I had exhaled I felt a lot of pressure on the underside of my limbs, like someone was trying to lift me. Then I realised that 2 people were trying to lift me and those people were 2 friendly Wild West cartoon characters! I can only assume that the book I am currently reading influenced their presence, the book is called "Wild Wood Wisdom" by Elswood Jaeger (sp?) and is about the outdoor skills of native americans and frontiersmen. He includes many illustrations, often with cute little anthropomorphosised wild west woodland critters, very cute and friendly. I think it was him and his wife. So they are trying to lift me, meanwhile I'm thinking (maybe saying) "Hey guys, I'm trying to reach a trip, stop distracting me!" I started to stand and drift to the right, falling towards the shed door that was fading fast. I realised my movement and told Elswood to pull my legs out from under, he obliged and that sent my careering towards my pillow, then he kept lifting my legs so I thought I was going to roll right up the wall! It felt great, like gravity had ceased except in a tiny zone around my head, anchoring me to my pillow. I'm sitting again, I get the sense that lots of people are watching and I don't want to offend them, Elswood and his wife's smiles tell me that nobody is rally watching me, I can do what I want. Something tells me I can handle more. I take another bowl with them watching on and still trying to lift me. THEN I realised that they were part of the trip, lol how I laughed. Then I couldn't hold the second hit any longer and I let it out, then tell all the people in the shed to shush (there were no people btw) and went to sit on my bed since I had unknowlingly stood up at some point, I was saying "excuse me" to people and trying to find room on what seemed like a very crowded bed, so I could sit down. The shed had turned into some sort of old fashioned railway station terminus, very busy. All the figures were dank and unclear, except Elswood, I could still see him out of the corner of my eye. I then realised I was saying excuse me to a duvet and sat down on my bed, hoping I didn't squash anyone just in case they were real. At times there was a stationary train quite close, coloured like Thomas the tank engine, after whom I am named, I think. Everything was groovy, there was no fear as I had slightly feared. I began to laugh and thought fuck it, one more bowl. So, third inhale and I noticed that this time and the second I had felt no pain in my throat from the smoke, it actually felt pleasant. This time my bed transformed into some sort of self-service diner and I had to negotiate a salad bar and throw some racking out of the way to find the soft bit to lay on, suddenly I thought shit I've just thrown steel racks all over the shed, I didn't want to cause any damage, I thought this as the last shelf was leaving my hand and I threw myself diving after it to catch it, then saw the blinds of the door up close and thought "no, I don't want to be diving around in this small space, even if it seems huge" and somehow turned my dive in mid air and flew back to my former position. That may have been out of body or I may have actually flew like superman, who knows. I felt myself land in a dive position like I had taken the flight I thought I took. I was concerned about the damage to the shed, my arms told me not to worry, they knew some great hands that could help with this. I laughed hysterically and urged them to let the hands know I needed their help. My hands went on auto to investigate and soon sent a message to my brain saying "don't worry, it was only a duvet and you didn't even throw it because you were on top of it. Thanks hands, I thought, you are so good to me. I felt a massive feeling of bliss. Elswood had left me but I could feel his memory and was so thankful that he would take the time to visit such a wretched creature as me. Everything was coming back to normal and I was laughing a lot. I looked around and was relieved to see nothing damaged. I suddenly felt very hungry, so made my way back to the house, only a short way across the patio. There is 1 step on the way to the house. I swear I went up 3. I got in the house and started making a cup of tea, then suddenly I needed to make sure I still had the skinning knife I had bought earlier today and it was still safe and in working order, it's location was a blank and it bothered me immensely. I found it and inspected the blade. All good. Phew. Various time and memory lapses struck, giving me much mirth. I was really trying not to wake my friends with my laughter. The Sage had not so much worn off but transitioned into a more lucid high. Then I sat down to eat some horrible dry bread, listen to funk and write this. My tea had 2 spoons in the cup and one on the saucer, meaning I had returned to the draw twice after the original spoon. The aneasthetic effect seemed to still be in play as I drank the tea fast and only realised how hot it was until afteer I had drank it. I'm loving the after-effects, it feels like I've been smoked some damn good weed. I can't wait to experiment more, though I don't think I'll risk it alone again, the Sage is not forgiving, don't EVER think you can really control it. in a way I feel quite lucky that I wasn't injured or that I didn't make a ruckus, i guess my self control is enough to just about manage on a smaller-sized dose. I'm going to do it in a field next time with loads of lovely grass underneath and stars in the sky! I bet that feels great! What is so satisfying is that it's like a dream, I can interpret what the experience was telling me, what my brain wanting me to know through the trip. I opened a door to perception. Thanks for reading, see you in the spirit world
Salvia is not forgiving, even when I have smoked it and think I understood the trip it throws a curveball. All psychedelics can be like that to a degree but Salvia is pretty ruthless in it's approach at times. Sounds like a very interesting trip.
Yes, I could feel it's unforgiving claws clutching my brain and choking my concious ego. I felt like Elswood, the friendly cartoon cowboy, was really watching me and reassuring me with his steady outdoorsmanlike attitude. The curveball was when I threw the racking (duvet) around because I had promised myself to stay seated and do nothing frantic but that promise evaporated pretty much as soon as it took effect! I feel really blessed that I didn't hurt myself or damage anything, especially now I look back and I was frantically unfolding a razor sharp knife to closely inspect the blade with my finger tips and eyes. A lot of people say they feel like they were losing their minds on Salvia. I am under the impression that I lost mine quite a long time ago and it was almost like I found it again...
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