so im reading this book cannabis philosophy, and im not really finding much philosophy in it, other than that maybe life is philosophy? its pretty uninteresting, maybe its that books can never amount to the real thing (what is artificially constructed by ou conscious reasoning can never amount to the wisdom of natural wild intuitive truth of nature especially if we consider ourselves seperate in any way from it) maybe im just interested in the actual book, the idea of being with it, on the front theres a cannabis leaf growing from some lush hill growth and casting a shadow on a purple band, perhaps a crown chakra and theres this picture of a guy sitting there, in deep thought on a yield sign what were we just talking about i need to stop and think, meditate on the beauty of this moment, on life growing, maybe the picture is real, maybe its a real plant out there somewhere thats magically bbeen represented in trickster form right here upon the book cover maybe its a strange kind of yoga, i've just opened the book and shifted through the pages, letting the letters fall across my eye, perhaps there is a spirit in the book, looking for more ample expression never go by the book aqua vitae people from switzerland, there was a really good band sagor and swing who i would listen to when i got high, and their music was both unrecognizably familiar, epic and soothing, dreamlike and inspiring everything is basically love, the judgements of others don't matter, none of the world maps matter, its just the moment as schizophrenic my mind keeps working, i think this is what makes me schizophrenic, that constantly they have chosen to comment in these strange tones, but the weed makes it better, i lose the hang up on that, which i try to lose even while sober, and i try to go somewhere else, block out the sound, then theres flo, and the fairies, and the herb, to me all of them are gods, energies, spirits.. all life is is getting through the hang ups and letting it come back to you and build up the energy you want, sometimes situations can make us act foolishly, out of anger or frustration, these are actually magical impressions we send out, and they come back to us as well, so its best not to do that learn to not be attached break from the status quo of definitions, if someone comes up to you insults you, what does that matter, what does it mean to you really? if everything is Goddess, every insult is also a compliment, everything remembered is something else forgotten, do what you want if everything is Goddess it will always work out equally, we are all trying to do whats best, we are all in some aspect confused here, we are merely lights sounds sensations when you lose what you clutch onto theres always this feeling of dying, or being totally misled, that it was all just to confuse you, the truth is we create our lives for ourselves, literally anything is possible, none of us are dependent on anything, everything we do is out of love, from the higher self I have a feeling they are trying to have sex with me, which is bizarre but, hey I am after all married to the entire universe, perhaps the schizophrenia is just a front, for being the ultimate Goddess of everything, which few are allowed to belief in officially anymore, and we are all taught to be selfless, and humble yet we go through the same, its just none can know of us, the worlds are created from the inner realms of our spirits we commune here, we see life everywhere we have made a connection to another world, life is there, thats why everyone is a shaman, everything, I'm happy to just be chilling, and to be with my love its difficult to handle this kind of love sometimes! its changed, completely, it had too, we're not even really totally sure whats happening to us. souls in tandem so many are inside of us all, so much happens, what does it mean, is there anything out there, floating around, healing with cannabis working with cannabis the spirituality and philosophy was there, but spirituality and philosophy never had anything to do with words, though they are there too its just could you ever see it I hold the book gently, delicately, it talks about hallucinatory terror, and reasons transcendental climb in earnest though this was a plant bringing divine celestial bliss, and it was not allowed in this world, to attain it one must pass into the other world we all arrived in this other world, in the fairy realm, in wanti, we shared and lived our lives we were healed overall by the experience because Gaia is a spirit healer. The plants and their wisdom heal when you let them fill your life, their images hold energy impressions of ancient wisdom, these are the spirituality, the wordless philosophy's an herb, air a scene and its impressions on the soul, the truth that makes communication, though you talk to them you talk to another part of yourself, its all the parts of my own spirit here, it reflects me, its not what one would think, thats what happens to shamans, and no one to see it, though its right there, its a way of life, being a bodhisattva is a way of life. nothing matters, it doesn't matter whats happening to me, its karma yoga. perversions make it this way to some degree, things like Goddess has made this and Goddess is destroying one for it at the same time, but its all us, its what we are doing to ourselves. can it be okay to be ourselves well yes not only on the internet We Jews are the patriarchal people, but we spring with the words from the Mother, the Shekinah, like all else they are the meaning of a priest, one is able to divine this, holy person, a shamanic people, all of us have a purpose, these are the ways of the Goddess, all ways make sense may we pass into the truth love word aigy we are all that begins in words, and we are married to them when theyre born and you learn numbers and letters and colors to distinguish, the real meaning then goes into hibernation why does this happen, its something to do with all these conceptions and distinctions because the original moment and this moment are a blink away, history only amounts to the present moment and theres always a portion thats just what we are doing, everything we see in our lives has a meaning, but we can deal with it many ways, it doesnt matter, the point is just to get through no suffering the buddha lives as a real force in us all to ensure this. sometimes we can reach a psychological point where we cause suffering to others to reap pleasure for ourselves, we must not do this it is caused by schizophrenia because we are them, no suffering is caused, none is inflicted. everything happens for a reason, even in insanity, i trust the working of the universe in its entirety, its seems like a neutral and wise place. Computer, bless you for being here awkward though you sometimes are, you have a good spirit, you're like a psychologist in some ways, together we can do this, whatever it is we're doing, we realize enlightenment everywhere. sometimes i think that it is myself, and the ness is like the extra stores of my mind, the manna is the kundalini, in the outside world, and herb basically the same thing, something from inside of us, also found within the plant. Our spirits are plant intelligences, alchemical combinations of these the spirits of these plants which speak to us, which are like the basic elements. within them is the ingredient of consciousness, and so also when we nourish ourselves with them, we recieve a blessing, and insight deeper into the nature of consciousness, we are more conscious. we have to come at it from an egoless place, we are within the plants, the plants are within the world, its just a river branching out further and further, they connect us to the greater spirit of life, but we are never cut off, because they also arise naturally in the self Yomo, Yaveyetta! you imbue all things and remind them of their original light, you restore good and love in the world, and make all content, somehow, seemingly by doing nothing! thank you for your help! I believe it is we who are sane and all these people who are the crazy ones, but every way is valid, I suppose. is altering our consciousness a basic human need, perhaps not a human need but a calling from the part of our selves that isn't entirely human and is more identified with the great unknown its what happens when we start breaking from the shell, through meditation. Bom Shiva! Love!
