I was dating a guy, "N," at the time of the trip I revisit. We took 3 and a half blotters a piece. N started to have an ego dissolving experience and I became annoyed with him for not being able to function normally (i.e: respond to conversations/questions). I felt so weird and I would normally support him but I didn't know how to in this situation. A few months later, we broke up. Now, I revisit this moment a lot. If I am meditating the whole scene will pop up, if I am just day dreaming or if I am high from smoking weed I will recall the feelings I felt during the time. I was wondering if any one else ever gets reoccurring LSD flashbacks? Also, is there possibly any significance about this certain event? I feel like there is but I am lost as to what it could mean.
maybe the fact that you became annoyed with him for experiencing the effects of the drug you both took is bothering you. Maybe it's a lesson about patience or understanding? In what sense did you feel "weird" during the experience, and why was it confusing to "support" him while he's having an ego-dissolving experience? In such an experience, "support" usually = don't interrupt
Normally, I would be completely supportive, that's the weird part. I think my high was to blame for my being uncomfortable. I had taken 3 and a half and my dealer texted me telling me to start with 1 (he knows how much I normally take) so I was feeling a little scared but still let the high come over me like always without fighting it. It's frustrating that I keep going back to that time. Maybe I just feel really bad about it.
It seems pretty obvious that you felt bad about it when you were tripping, and still feel kind of bad about it. It may be related to other times when you are impatient or not completely supportive because you are thinking of yourself more than others. It sounds like a very positive tripping experience where you can learn something about yourself. Maybe, though, the first step is forgiving yourself and then trying to make sure you don't regret something you do again by being more supportive next time. I don't think this is what most people would call a flashback. I'm not really sure if flashbacks actually exist (i doubt it), but I think people mean when they suddenly are tripping again without taking anything.
:iagree: Flashbacks are real and do happen, but they are nothing at all like what is portrayed in the popular media. A true psychedelic flashback is much more akin to a Post Traumatic Stress Disorder type of anxiety attack or episode. From everything I have read, flashbacks are usually anxiety attacks that are often precipitated by an event that is similar to or reminds the person of something that occurred during their bad psychedelic experience. Flashbacks are NOT like a free trip, as stated, they are more like a PTSD episode. What the OP describes is not a "flashback", it's called remembering.
perhaps your mind has isolated that moment as what caused the relationship to end, and is continuing to return to it so it can protect itself from heartbreak in the future. Feels bad man.
I've actually heard one of my friends say that he has had "emotional flashbacks" from LSD too. While it's not really a visual flashback, it's hard to explain any other way, but very real. There are just different emotions felt on LSD for me and my friend at least that we can't forget.
Flashbacks for me were manifested by shifts in reality such as streets and buildings shimmering, tracers with little sparkles, and feeling out of time. They were never distressing, just different. They went away after awhile. "After awhile" is about as specific as I can get. It was a few years ago.
