finally off the shit

Ive been fortunate that I dont have alot of pain to make me use. The monkey is off my back finally, I didnt no if it would ever leave but over time it has. I still have a little trouble sleeping at times but this is the best ive felt since I started using. Bottle I will be around more now. Drugs help many people live better lifes so im all for having them if you need them but I dont have enough pain to justify using. They just destroyed my life in ways but its a new day. Happy memorial day everyone!

 

now this is just me, for someone else it may be a trigger.....but often when i have a urge to pop pills and i know that im way to early to dose, or that i need to space them out because im running low, i have found that reading about opiates or watching youtube videos about them does settle the urge and help past that moment to splurge......SOMETIMES that is, lol, again just me tho....happy for everyone that is beating the habit!!!!! For those of you who were prescribed meds, by kicking them you are making the pain clinics a little less crowded, and hopefully "we" can get in and out QUICKER, ahahahhahhhh

 

Good luck to you, I hope your journey is successful!

 

great job spens. i wish i still saw shocbomb and u4ia on here often, those were great opiated posters. and i been dabbling here and there, maybe like 4-5 times a month around usually just with poppyseed tea or heroin lately.

 

wazup dudes

 

I thought rehab wasn't bad at all. In all honesty I had a lot of fun in primary. I went to HCYF in Minnesota which is primarily a twelve step program and at first that was okay with me but once I left primary and entered the half way house, AA and NA were starting to wear on my because I'm not a religious person and so the "higher power" concept was just too much for me. The social aspect was okay but it was all just too close to organized religion for my taste.

One thing you gotta know about rehab is that there is something called "after care". That is after your initial month you could end up staying another 90 days, get sent to some other treatment center (like Gray Wolf), or like me go to a half way house. Just be aware because nobody told me!

 

Oh also depending on your counselor, they are gonna expect you to cry and express other emotions you may not be comfortable with or used to.

That was always annoying.

 

Congrats to everyone who is trying to quit abusing drugs or medications. I hope you have the will to fight the battle for the long haul. Watch out for using dreams, they are either a big relief in the morning or an enormous trigger. Good luck to everyone! Don't force yourself to keep putting yourself through quitting and starting again. The main thing that has kept me off of the shit is just knowing the nights my friends go out and use, I will feel a little bit of resentment and jelousy that they are getting high. Then i think about how they will feel in the morning when they are not high and emotionally and literally bankrupt. That has kept me "sober"(on 2mg of sub a day) so far. I wish you all the best.

 

Whats up Spens, hows the clean life doing for you Bro? Would love to hear you're still clean since Rehab. Let us know how you're doing Bro!