I am so sick of women.

I know I dug my own grave and all that shit, but I am just royally sick of bullshit. Sick of dealing with both girls involved in this.

I am officially ready for anger sex with unsuspecting 19 year old girls.

 

That could net you three angry women!

This is not a situation where you can hope that the third time is a charm!

Hope things improve for you soon!

 

They will, I guess. I'm moving to China in 8 weeks to teach highschool there. Leaving all of this behind.

 

you should take your issues out on a fire... not a human being..

 

One thing I've learned about myself is that I have zero emotional intelligence. None whatsoever.

I've been bouncing between trying to be super healthy by exercising even more and eating well... and just totally breaking down into super dangerous behaviour. Falling danger trees that I probably wouldn't normally touch, driving down backroads twice as fast as I normally do... Drinking big bottles of CC. I'm reeling right now about as bad as I ever have.

I've been going through a tin of dip every two days or so and I barely ever chew normally.

 

You are probably running about average on dealing with the changes that you are in the middle of. One minute life moves forward and the next there is an issue as a result of what happened.

You need to find an outlet for all of the emotional part of this that is not so detrimental to you. Sage advice but no real plan to help you get to there.

Keep your focus on what is ahead rather than what has been. The 8 weeks will pass rather quickly, not quickly enough probably though and you will be on to a new start.

Hard to stop talking to your ex as she probably still has issues to settle with you but possibly stopping dealing with the other woman might be something to consider.

I wish you the very best on your new start. Sometimes a change is good.

 

Call me newage for having a reiki master, but when I confessed to him my negative feelings about my self-destructive behavior (smoking, drinking, eating poorly) he simply said that it's just a few cells I'm hurting.

I think his point was not that there is nothing wrong with it, but that most of us are not on the short path to enlightenment.

A few cells of this human form are of little consequence to the eternal spirit.

It is just a pebble on your long path, all a part of your journey.

 

yeah stay away from women...they're bad news

 

Just wait until you're surrounded by a bunch of asian women. You'll really be sick of em....

 

Thanks for the advice. Right after I told the ex I was feeling pretty lonely and hooked up with this other girl a couple more times. And now she is kind of super hot and cold (ie: wanting to hook up when we're spending time together and then withdrawing). I think I'm just going to cut her loose.

Ahh I desperately want something to start burning soon so I can go back to camp.

 

Good luck man.

I almost got caught in your situation recently*

*reply subject to termination in fear of getting caught

 

I'd just move on.

Not all women are like those two.

 

change begets change.

 

This is where country beats up rock and roll.
Rock and roll, all this emo nonsense has you sittin there whining and moping.

Whereas country, it'll have you gettin over it, while reminiscing about the good times, while drinking some longnecks and noticing that cutie with the low cut top racking the pool balls suggestively.

 

does that rhyme with sewage?

 

I've done some talking and I'm not really going to see either woman anymore.

I am going to go find some nice young girl to go see before I go, but I'm not really angry anymore.

 

They tend to cluster around cities. I`ve certainly spotted a lot more of them than pink dolphins.

 

there's a lot in the country too, they're just married if they're over 18.

 

life is too short to spend it around people that make you unhappy or don't treat you right

 

rumor has it that the mature/ healthy things to do after breaking up with someone is to spend some time alone, rather than using/ depending on someone to fill an emotional void. Idk, that's what I've heard.

It would also be a gesture of respect to your ex and your relationship with her if you just stayed single for a few weeks.

You might want to write a letter to your ex so that you can try to work out anything there that is unresolved. I guess at least there's little chance that doing so would fuck things up any more than they are fucked up now.

If your ex knows the reasons why you cheated (something wrong with the relationship, fear of ltr, or whatever the reasons were), knows that you are writing to her to explain rather than to try to get back together with her, and knows how much anguish the break up has caused you, she may eventually get to a place where she can forgive you.

clearing the karma from this relationship will probably help make your next relationship better. unresolved issues from past relationships often have a way of resurfacing.

please avoid the high risk behaviors. it may be tough now, but in a few weeks or months, things will get better. you have a temporary problem, unless you fuck yourself up in an accident, then you could easily be screwed for life.