Ok so the other day i got alot off my chest to my dad. ive had nothin to do with him for years, he's never been bothered and bullied me as a child, blah blah. anyway i realy ripped into him. he's a real hard man and talks with his fists and never shows emotion. Well i made him cry, and although at the time i had the most overwhelming feeling of power, which i really enjoyed for that moment. I really hope this made him think about becoming a better man, these truths needed to be said. although now i think about it after a big cone i almost feel his pain, when i made him cry. i shouldnt but when i smoke cannabis i sympathise with people a little to much. he was a verry bad man yet all i think is ive been bad for making my maker cry. does cannabis have this afect on any of you? as in almost making you too nice, almost like exposing a weekness?
Its cause it connects you to God man... No, but really I quite enjoy busting some skulls after a big five footer. Anarchy forever!!
i had it with him when i wasnt stoned and was in a very agressive state so to speak. Im using this as an example i suppose. what i mean is i have a smoke and your right i do connect with god and every aspect of life and myself. but i almost lose my natural human defence mechanism of aggresion. For instance if i was in a bar-sober, and somone pushed in front of me, no matter how big they are i would see they wait their turn or else get a good crack in the skull. where as if i was stoned i would be constantly counting how many shoes i have on and not say a word.
Good for you. You "made your maker cry"-good line. Now reach out to him with an open hand. You punched him and he's down. Probably for good reason. Now that he's down reach out your hand and help him up. Maybe smoke with him. Sympathise but hold your ground. But help him. Reach out and find common ground. You broke through his armor-now be there for him. Lots of dads become dads before they're ready. He may need someone's help 'to be a better man'. Maybe you need to teach him. You may be both better for it.
^^ Great point man. your definetly stoned, ha. I left it saying the reason i said what i did was so we can move on and build a relationship and have what we've never had. So ive offered an olive branch, hopefully he takes it. but i cant meet with him stoned, he's ex police right wing ect so ive alot to work with yet, ha.
Good. It's your call where you go from here-give him a few days and reach out to him. As I said he may not know how. And that sucks for you-and it sucks for him. But give it a few days and reach out to him. Leave him a voicemail saying you'd like to hang out again. Send him an email. When I'm in these types of situations-I like to try to reach out to the person and give them time to reach out to me-but I let them know that I'd like them to reach out to me. You never know if you call someone on their cell phone if they are ready to talk to you-it they are in the right mindset. Reach out to him and give him some time. Good luck.
