Molly, She changed immensely and never returned. Any thought as to why?!?

Okay, i know their are a few different threads regarding this general idea but none i read have directly explained the issue between my relationship with mdma.

Okay i will create a timeline.

2006-2007- Ecstasy found me. I rolled once-twice a month on various pills. Usually all of them were good if not fantastic. Only a few bunk pills, probably only one or two batches were strictly mdma albeit. At this point i thought it was a fucking great time to take them with my highschool buddies. go to parties and all that shit. Never was dissapointed...as long as the pills were good.
2007-2008- Get of the whole x vibe. We were just doing different shit. Sports, drinkin, ect. Probably rolled 1-3 times. Always amazing. These were still street pills.
2008-2009- Every single hook raises prices and starts selling SHIT. BZP flooded the streets. I rolled once off some bart simpsons or transformers or something of that nature. The pills that were not circles but special presses. They were fucking crap. So i didn't bother. Until that summer my buddy started getting MDMA shipped in from overseas and that summer i had about 2 amazing trips off that stuff. Still no problems.
2009-2010- I roll about 1-2 times off some fire crystal mdma. However i really wasn't feeling it that much anymore. I could pop/snort or whatever up to 4-5 100mg tabs and the more i took it just equaled more side effects. But everyone else was rolling balls (eyes in the back of their heads, flapping their gums like teenage girls, talking about how great they feel ect...) Yes, some of the people had rolled less in their lifetime than me but alot of them had rolled twice as much as me in their lifetime. I just thought maybe i wasn't in the right mindset or something those two times even though i only did it at the concerts of bands i loved and are KNOWN for putting on good shows for this type of drug.
Okay, Then That same year i had my first and only candyflip. I can't describe to you how perfect it was. The night, the show, the drugs. They all aligned beautifully. That time i had no adverse effects from the molly and i could tell it was really boosting my trip and clearing up the "foginess" that lsd brings.
2010-2011. I take mdma again this previous december. And once again I can tell i am rolling....but i dont have really any euphoria compared to normal. And everyone im with won't shut up about how this is the best molly they ever had. I took about a fuckign gram than night because it was going to be the last time i could before going on probation. I was at good show with my girlfriend. She was rolling and having the time of her life. I just acted like i was on her level so it didn't make her uncomfortable or make her apathetic that i wasn't rolling hard enough.

Okay, sorry for the long history but i felt it was necessary for you to analyze my sorry situation at hand. Is it really possible to lose the magic even though the past few years i have spaced out my trips at the least 6 months!. Does molly effect the brain differently than most drugs?
For example: Does it make a difference if you are doing it consecutively compared to doing it lets say 20 times over 20 years. You would always lose the magic at 20 times regardless if it took you 40 years to do it that many times or 2 years...?!?

And one last question if i feel as if i lost the magic...is their anyway to regain it?

Sorry again for the long post...this problem has just been bothering me for a long time because i never really abused the substance since the first year. And i have saved molly for special occasions and always treated her with respect. Why did she turn on me???

 

This is from Erowid:

Many users report that their enjoyment of MDMA seems to decrease as total lifetime usage increases. Some users report that E 'loses its magic' with as few as 10 experiences, while others have reported hundreds of uses before the empathic qualities fades or disappears. Most users stop taking E because of either an increased awareness or an actual increase in negative side effects during use, a reduced quality of the high, and increases in the post-MDMA depression and day after hangover. Most users report that when using more than once a month, or merely over increased total lifetime use, they need to increase the dosage in order to get positive effects with MDMA. Increased dosage is associated with increased side effects, hangover, and week-after depression.

I use caffiene to boost my molly because I'm more accustomed to the rush from Ecstasy pills.

 

Thankyou that was pretty much the answer i was looking for.

Well actually i was hoping for...Nooo your fine...just give it some time. But im glad i heard the truth.

Well i guess my molly days are over. it was fun while it lasted.

 

Actually, I think the DEA stopped manufacturing the really good stuff when Bush left office.

 

How much caffeine? Do you just drink a cup of coffee or do you take caffeine pills? I want to try this.

 

it all started when they took out the trans fat

 

I use caffiene pills.

I either dose

200 mgs MDMA + 60 mgs caffiene
250 mgs MDMA + 75 mgs caffiene

 

Yah, I'm only half joking about that.