A renewed appreciation: An unusually wonderful opioid experience

As most of the regulars here know, I am prescribed Suboxone (Buprenorphine) as an off-label (pretty much) last resort attempt to treat my deep depression aspect of Schizoaffective Disorder. I have taken it now for eight months and take the same dose as I did then.

In the last few months, however, I have just been taking the 4mg dose (two doses of 2mg per day) and ignoring it pretty much. I would go do other things that distracted from the subtleties of the opioid experience. I also was switched to Vyvanse (Dextroamphetamine prodrug) from Concerta/Ritalin. I had not gotten 'in the zone' (as I say) since the switch.

When I say in the zone, I mean that I set aside a good two solid hours to truly explore my mind under the power of the opioid. I recline on the couch, construct an appropriate music playlist, and simply relax in a meditative fashion, sorting out the 'noise' in my brain slowly but surely. Eventually, I end up closing my eyes and exploring beautiful concepts in my mind as well as feeling completely in the moment and content. But I had not done that in quite awhile.

So today, I took 4mg (plus 1mg extra) at once around 2:00 pm to rekindle those feelings. At first I was reluctant that I could get to that state, but amazingly it happened. Time simply ceased to exist for me in the last four hours and I feel like a different person (in a good way). I was reminded, again, of the power of the opioids, especially their effect on a troubled mind. For those who believe the 5-HT2A psychedelics, MDMA, and/or Cannabis are the only 'legitimate' tools to explore one's mind (if one has decided to use chemical enhancements to do so...), they should at least understand that the opioids CAN be used that way too. They need not actually experiment with them themselves, but at least show some understanding for the possibility.

Sorry to ramble. Obviously I am still feeling the effects pretty darned strongly, and I feel like a young child on the ride home from an amusement park.

I think my journey with Suboxone will continue this way: Take the standard dose most days, but once a week or once every 10 days, take more and listen to my own mind for awhile.

Thanks for reading. I don't really need any specific replies. I just wanted to put this out there for some unknown reason (probably because, well...I am high...)

 

ETK, I'll tell ya man, you get way more out of Subs than I can. BTW, When i asked you about Subs other day, i was actually asking do you think 24hrs worth of Opana withdrawals is sufficient enough time to start a Sub dose. Example of 24 Opana withdrawal for me is what i would call full withdrawals......I just dont want to throw myself into PWDs.....!

 

I guess I am just lucky that it worked so well for me. Anyways, my story could apply to anyone and their favorite opioid, really.

As for Precipitated w/d, I think for Opana, 24 hours is sufficient to start. By that, though, I mean wait 24 after the effects of the Opana are worn off, not 24 from ingestion.

 

Ugghh, its surely gonna be kicking my ass by then but I gotcha......

Have you ever experienced precipatated WDs? Is it worse than normal withdrawals? Or does it seem worse because of the quick onset...?

 

Bottle Bro Once U Start Getting That Feeling Of WD In Your Stomach U Can Dose Your Subs... 24Hr Off Of Opana Is More Then Enough Time!!! Don't Suffer For No Reason...