i posted here a while back to get some advice on managing some of my depressive feelings and it worked pretty well until now. i feel worse than ever and the part that eats me a lot is that my pain is for what i would even consider a stupid reason(s). i have very low self esteem and that's thanks to the constant harassment i went through while growing up and going through school. i was told by people i even considered to be friends that i was ugly, a loser, no one likes me. i was always called the kid with no friends. and now every time something bad happens in my life, i keep thinking about what they said and it hurts more and more each time. another part that im afraid to tell people about because i dont want to be made fun of for is that im 19 and have never had a girlfriend before. i like girls and i try to get to know the ones that i like or even just talk to some girls that im interested in, but for whatever reason it seems they hate me before they even really know me. i dont like talking about these things because it makes me feel like a whiner and that its insignificant compared to other peoples problems. but i dont know what to do anymore.
u're young, be patient. and as PeacefulLibra said, u could consider talking to someone about it. hope u feel better
Yeah i talk to my best friend about it. but hes never had ANY of those problems so he doesnt understand
yeah, this sounds like the sort of thing where therapy could help a lot. you've been given a lot of negative messages, but you can counter the effects of those negative messages with some positive messages and understanding the issues that you are dealing with so unfortunately, the way out society tends to work is that a certain portion of our society enjoys victimizing people and tries to make themselves feel more important by hurting others. these people then seek out whoever is most vulnerable and tries to hurt them. it's not that you did something wrong or that you deserved to be treated this way, it's just that these people want somebody to hurt, and if it wasn't you, it would have been somebody else I know that this may sound cliche, but no matter how you feel about how you look on the outside, it's what's on the inside that is most important. while our culture tends to be very superficial, I think that there are people who are aware that what is on the inside is what counts. I think that if you seek out the company of good people, good things can come into your life I'm sorry that you have gone through so much hardship :grouphug:
