Ok so, I'm a pretty depressed person. I smoke a lot of weed and drink occasionally though I wouldn't say I'm addicted. I have somewhat of an inferiority complex and I tend to "over-think" things. I don't think my mental problems are too severe, I think it's just a part of mental "puberty" that I'm going through, seeing as how I was kinda happy during my senior year of high school and I am currently 19 and in my second year of college. An acquaintance of mine is selling 2C-I and gave me a 15mg capsule today. I'm excited yet reluctant to take it because of the fact that I tend to over-think things and I do have a few real reasons to be depressed (alcoholic father and religious mother, both of whom are very authoritative and were somewhat abusive during my childhood). However, I have read extensively that it is very hard to have a bad trip on 2C-I because it induces euphoria and is not much of a mind fuck. In case I do have a bad trip, I'll have a few cigarettes with me to reduce anxiety and some Xanax handy as a last resort. May I please get your thoughts, opinions, and suggestions on this?
Your choice. The best way to know that you're ready to take a psychedelic is to know that you want to take it. Can't really say whether you'll be having a good time or not. I over-think shit a lot too and I love that when combined with psychedelics, but I have a few friends who don't like lingering on their thoughts too much when they're tripping, they just can't help it. Never tried any of the 2C's so I can't help you with what the trips like, but I have heard the the 2C-I's don't have much depth to them so it sounds like a good 1st psychedelic experience. If you decide to, have a good time mate and post a trip report for us to read Enjoy!
two possible outcomes - you'll either over-think it or think around it. in most cases i've felt, the former constitutes most drug induced dysphoria while the latter creates euphoria. i guess it depends on if you're someone seeking escape as well... some people who do psychedelics go into it fully expecting to "over-think". i think one of the characteristics of psychedelics is that they work best if you come to terms with your circumstances/emotions either before or sometimes during a trip (DMT/ayahuasca use is often an example of "during"). at the end of the day no one on the internet can tell you for sure... you can just gather bits and pieces from across the effects spectrum and try to prepare, and hopefully have a good dose. 15mgs is a decent dose. for a first time i'd rec. 12-15mgs. i'd also go with 2c-e over i personally. good luck!
No real advice here all that can be has already been said, al I would like to add is that 2c-i is a fantastic first choice and with the anxieties you have about tripping I could well be better than E, which is sometimes regarded as being less euphoric and more emotionally neutral. I think I am a quite similar person to your description up there minus the religious mother and I definitely enjoyed 2c-i over 2c-e.. 2c-e however did give INCREDIBLE synthesesia the first time I ever listened to Pink Floyd!
Thanks for the advice guys. I think I'm going to do it but I just want to know if there's a chance that I'll blurt out personal stuff that's on my mind while tripping.
Not sure. Maybe you should, maybe you shouldn't. Enjoy your trip. Also, sounds like you're whining about depression that doesn't anywhere near count as depression, if you have the motivation to bother smoking pot, leaving your bed, or having friends. Stop misusing pot, it's something that can be highly positive OR negative, depending on how you channel it. *edit* yeah, didn't see that, guerilla's right about cigs and xannies. If you start a trip, you need to be prepared to ride it out, whatever may happen. If you're not prepared for however well or horribly it could go, don't take it. A "bad" trip could be the best thing that ever happens to you, and you'd blot it out with xanax? Besides, if you've never taken psychedelics, you could easily get scared and use your way out before you're even all the way up, psychedelic come-up's can be the hardest part of of the trip.
If you were to take 2ci with someone else also on 2ci you may very well end up blurting out personal stuff, perhaps even if you are very comfortable with someone sitting you as well. My first 2ci trip I found to be highly analytical, so you may end up thinking alot. It's also your first psychedelic trip though so you may just be kind of caught up in the novelty of the effects. I'd skip the cigs and benzos and crank up the stereo if you start having unwelcomed thoughts that you don't want to try to work on but psychedelics excel in allowing one to approach problems in a new perspective that often leads to results, so I recommend not trying to escape any negative thoughts if they do come.
