Depersonalization OCD anxiety help?

I think its pretty prevelent that im mentally ill now. I'm depressed, depersonalized/derealization, and i have an anxiety disorder, and i have OCD. I have felt like ive been dreaming for a year or two now, i feel spaced out and detached from the world and my body/brain. After being prescribed valium and ssris, i cant be fucked with pillls anymore. Although i know ill never commit suicide, i think about it through out the day. The only thing that gives me mild relief from depression is b vitamins. I just want my mind to be clear. But im always in a fog.

Nothing helps, and there is no recovery plan or cure for depersonalization wherever i go.

OCD is awful lately, i keep questioning over and over and over whether im turning gay or not. Which im almost certain im not, but if i do, i will kill myself to be honest. I dont want that . My memory is so poor i cant even remember what i ate for breakfast. The only relief i get is sleep. I dont know what to do because i dont know how much i can take. .

 

nothing wrong with being gay

 

sorry this is going on bro

maybe try regular, gentle exercise. chinese medicine might help if you can get it

meditation practice?

hope that things can get better soon!

 

yo I had bad ocd and I got over it.

how did I beat my ocd?

1.) not smoking weed for 6 months. you would be surprised how much getting short term memory back helps with ocd. takes about 2 months before u starts to notice the help. that means not even 1 single hit for 2 month!!!! i used to smoke everyday too

2.) Exercise. try to relax try to clear your head and go on a run and only focus on that run at the time nothing else. lift some weights too. trust me it releases natural relaxing chemicals that help the brain. and even when your brain can't stop still go exercise cus the natural high relaxtion after is good for ocd. plus it helps increase mental focus and stimulate the brain meaning even days after the exercise your head is improving. exercise 3 times a week. build yourself up slowly eventually you will be in good condition it make take lots of time but time=improvement and it only gets easier!!!! thats the good thing about exercise is it only gets easier.

3.) NO PORNO!!! this one if very important. im sorry if you think im joking but if you really wanna get better quit watching it. masturbation too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! quit that!!!! do you wanna get better???????

4.) Be a good person. also watch you mouth. do not speak stupidity or rage at people or get angry. try best to keep yourself calm. do not blame others for your OCD or get mad at others when feeling OCD.



If you follow all these of things then please report back in a couple of months. I would love to hear how you are doing.

oh and also try to avoid the SSRI please. that is throwing in the towel and giving up.

also if you do smoke weed you do not have to quit forever but please take a 6 month break while also following the other things I wrote because you need some time to clear your head up and see things from a sober viewpoint.

trust me you don't know what its like to be sober unless you got a long time without it

 

try cognitive behavioural therapy

 

If you cant remember your past you might want to go ask some relatives about it
Depersonalization/OCD/anxiety come from past trauma. You sound really dissasociated.
We cant really help you if we dont know anything about what could've caused your illness :L