I would like to try and experience ego-death on one of my future trips, and I'd like to know from others personal experience what it is like. Where in the trip does it happen? The majority of the trip just the peak, or what not? And on what psychedelic, and aprox how much of it? Was the experience scary? Was it rewarding? Were you alone or with a group, and did you do it on purpose?
It was my first time on shrooms. A potent 1/8. I was with three friends who werent tripping. About an hour in, no memory. I became confused and couldnt remember my name, who I was, or why any of that was important. A very frightening experience. I fell through hell but the trip went good after an hour of that. Terrible time, but I would definitely say it was a rewarding experience, in retrospect.
My first ego death experience was on my 2nd LSD trip. It happened on 3 potent tabs and happened in the latter half of the experience, it was somewhat frightening but also really powerful. I was with others but only one other person was on LSD and they may have all been asleep. My sense of ego and self was disintegrating, so no it was not something I did on purpose. I found it a very interesting experience, and as I said it was very powerful, definitely got an "I'm alive" type thrill coming out of the trip. The most reliable psychedelic for ego death ime is Salvia Divinorum, I'd say the LSD ego death experience somehow presents itself differently though.
the only time i think i really experienced "ego death" was on a salvia breakthrough. but then again...i still felt a sense of "I" so maybe it wasn't really ego death. i didn't know where i was, or that i had done a drug. i couldn't see my real surroundings and i felt like my life up until that point was a cruel joke. on LSD i would say what i've experienced is more like "ego softening." that time on 4 hits i told you about in a different thread...where it felt like my consciousness was floating up into the air, and spreading out. felt like my body was actually dissolving into its component molecules or atoms. felt absolutely amazing. on 2ce "ego softening" comes in a different form, where i feel like i can relate very well to other people, whether it's humanity in general, or the person i'm tripping with (felt like i tasted pizza that he was chewing, and i felt oxy that he snorted hit MY nasal cavity). i remember saying to him "dude...i didn't know i was you"
On an eigth of the best shrooms ive ever come across, (and still have never found that same strain), I became one with my best friend. We would look at eachother, and it seemed as though we were looking at ourselves. We communicated telepathically all night. I love him to this day because of that trip.
There's a thread under DMT about a trip that might be a good read for you. It's VERY long but pretty interesting. Ego death included of course http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=436448&f=457 ^^that's it Good luck with the ego death...It's pretty scary to me but when it happens it happens I guess :hippy: -Peace-
Incredible read 5dimdeep!Ego death is much more serious than I thought, I believed you only lost sense of who you yourself were, but essentially loosing your brain/mind quite literally is a different thing... The power of it sounds so intense, I can't believe the ever changing effects of LSD and psychedelics!! Lucy has an infinite amount of stories to tell you! I really can't wait for an experience with DMT though, Ive been reading so much about it. I'd also like to try a mix with L.sD and DMT because I've heard the open minded effect of L.sD can give greater interpretations to your world of the DMT trip! Really interesting stuff
I've "experienced" ego death once, on 4 hits of clean, potent white on white blotter. The experience that changed my life, I'll never forget it, and yet I can't remember what it was like. So here it goes! Tuesday, November 24th, 2009. I took the blotters at exactly 11:11 pm. (Not intentionally at that time lol, just so happened to be that time.) I was not intending on experiencing ego death, I really had no idea what I was in for, but I had taken acid like 3 or 4 times before, same tabs, and was just...blown away. So I remember watching some TV then going upstairs and laying down, trying to listen to music and just chill and what not, but I started to feel very uneasy. This uneasiness became progressively worse until it was unbearable. Just fucking terrible: extreme mental confusion, fear, panic, feeling constricted, repressed, choked, just all around terrible. I'm buddhist/athiest, but remember begging and pleading to any gods that would listen to help me in my woeful state, but to no avail. After trying to fight the trip and negativity it entailed for a while, I just decided to let go, to stop trying to avoid this terrible suffering, then boom. There it was. Longer than the longest and smaller than the smallest. (Amount of time that is.) Eternity. Infinity. Bliss. Nirvana. Samadhi. Salvation. Peace. Just...indescribable, a life-defining moment. My sense of "self" was completely annhiliated, there was no me, there just was. I had "felt" the "lowest common denominator" that all beings share, the soul. I realized and saw a little of myself in everyone else, and a little of everyone else in myself. I can't really say that "I" experienced it, but for that one moment, that one eternal moment, there was just pure bliss. Pure happiness. I remember after I "came to", I was just...astounded, and my first reaction was to just burst into geniune, joyful laughter, because I was just so happy with what had just happened. What I had realized is that reality is perfect, and the balance of duality, like yin/yang, male/female, positive/negative, good/evil, etc. My whole perspective on reality had been reborn, reforged in the blast furnace of heaven, via LSD. I saw everything anew, I felt reborn, like I had never felt before. Filled with a sense of profound peace, wonder, happiness and contentment. I was afterglowing for what felt like a week or 2 after, but was probably like 2 or 3 days hah. Re-reading what I wrote though, really can't even come remotely close to describing what actually happened. It really is indescribable, and all I can really give are little bits and pieces. I think one of the best quotes I've seen regarding this phenomenon comes from Taoism, (least I think so lol), and the quote is something to the effect of, "He who talks doesn't know, and he who knows doesn't talk." Even though I just talked, lol, that really does sum it up. It's something you have to find and experience yourself. Now, almost 2 years later, I'm still integrating the experience, still learning from it, and almost not a day goes by that I don't think about it. If I think of/ remember anything else about it I'll post that as well.
Oh and also, regarding where in the trip it happened, it was definitely the peak. In fact, I'd say that the ego death experience is the ultimate peak that can be achieved via LSD, the absolute peak, so to speak. (And rhyme, lol.) I can't say exactly, but it was about 2-3 hours after dosing, or thereabouts, maybe 4 hours, but I definitely didn't sleep that night, hah. Interesting side note regarding sleep and this experience. So, I've usually had pretty bad dreams for most of my life, but the next night after ego death, so the first time I slept after it, something very beautiful happened. I layed downed, fell asleep within like 1 or 2 minutes, which NEVER happens, and went into a state of bliss, not full out ego death, but subtle, peaceful, bliss, then woke up what felt like only a moment later, but it was actually a full nights sleep, 8 hours later! No dreaming at all, just that beautiful state for only a moment, then awake. I felt totally rested and ready for the day too, and quite happy as well.
^^^@yeahh mind blown-that sounds so awesome now I wouldn't mind an ego death I think I was on the verge of it last time I tripped...maybe this weekend it'll happen...who knows? haha Cool story tho thanks for sharing :hippy: -Peace-
