so my friend had a birthday get together. the majority of us ate a roll, the birthday girl and her boyfriend at a roll and a half. our buddy who's house we were at ate some mush and my best friend ate mush and a roll. now these aren't just your average x pills. these are special. i know many of you don't realize this but when you get REAL x, it's a completely different drug. this was a really special night for me. i been having girlfriend problems. like this strong intuition to break up with her. i believe this is a symptom of a minor case of ptsd due to a hellish mushroom trip. that trip really fucked me up. this night helped me see that trip in a different way. talking about it with the best friends i could ever want really helped. they just understand so much. in a nutshell, the girlfriend issue was resolved. she's so special yet i've been treating her not so good. it makes me feel like i was a demon. i guess it's just because i let my fears get to me. but never again:love: i also had an extreme bond with my buddy Jabbles. he's the one who ate a half eight of the firest mush around and a roll. we came up going on a walk. we talked about some of his personal life. family issues. we talked about why it is that we're so different. like him and I are just not your average person compared to our friends and anyone else for that matter. yet him and I are so similar. we connect in a way unlike anyone else we know. the night turned out to be the gayest yet most hetero night of our lives. he was in an overwhelming state of ecstasy. his voice was pure, his words were truth. then rap music started playing... we had to get out of there. we were about to leave, he was leaned against the wall wild eyed while i was trying to explain why we had to leave. next thing you know he's collapsing, no words, just eyes rolled back twitching. he was FAR OUT to our standards. our friend Col wouldn't let us use is room cause he has issues about people being in his room. i don't get it. our other buddy let us use his room. we went in and Jabbles was not with us. his energy was just heavy breathing, muscle tension, and "AUUUUMMMMMM!" He was not in control, his body was the conduit of pure energy. his "OM" really blew my mind. he started coming back a bit, the only thing he could say was my name. he didn't even know his own name. we had a mad cuddle session, i'm pretty sure he bit out some of my hair at one point. he spoke of how energy is love, but physical existence blocks the purity of love and energy. society doesn't allow love to flow freely. the majority of society doesn't believe in a hetero expression of love. you're just a gay guy if you love men, or your supposed to say "no homo" for some dumb reason. when he would speak of society, he would become very frustrated. I'd have to calm him down and remind him that everyone is still learning how to love. an interesting thing he told me, him and i were in a pitch black room yet he could see a flickering light. the brightest light he's ever seen with rainbows in it in the middle of the room. he said he felt like he was in a void of energy, no physical, just energy. he couldn't feel me, per se, but the energy that is me. as he came down he cuddled my girlfriend and I. he would randomly giggle a lot. a little later when he was able to speak easily and move around we listened to pink floyd and vaped some dro with our friends. since this night I realized that he's been my very best friend this whole time and i never acknowledged it. the mindset of this night has lasted for both of us still days later. his concept on consciousness is very different. he used to believe that "god" was just an artificial thing. he knows that we are all one interconnected being that thrives on love. he knows now that consciousness will not cease to exist at death. he says this is his last trip, but we'll see what happens in the future. one more thing, it's also kinda odd. the hellish mushroom trip that i mentioned earlier, Jabbles was with me. unfortunately i was alone while he asleep. but we still happened to be in each others presence during the most powerful experiences of our lives.:sunny:
Wow, sounds like an awesome evening. Really great descriptions, Ecstasy tears down social and emotional barriers in such a remarkable way, pretty cool you got to share such a powerful experience along with those close to you.
indeedy, and thanks for the kind words. it also clears barriers of other types. whenever i have a good special roll, my guitar skills progress
Beautiful trip! I'm reminded of lines from the Jefferson Airplane: Your mother's ghost stands at your shoulder Face like ice, a little bit colder (saying) You should not do that, It breaks all the rules You learned in school. and I'm doing things that haven't got a name yet! Yeah, and have a look at the words below the photo below. Can you even believe we're doing these things!
My wife and i did the same thing. Cant find the same experience or same stuff in orlando any more it seems. No mush all pure rolling such fun times.
thats beautiful. i love the love. i love you for being able to love so easily and seeing the love that we all truly strive for. i hope to one day be able to free myself from the strains conditioned by society and let my love run free again. peace brother
