First gay kiss doesnt feel right?

Hey everybody, my entire life ive considered myself to be straight and have had many girlfriends but just recently ive started thinking/wondering about guys and well tonight i kissed my first guy and as much as i liked it and loved being with him it kinda felt weird... is this feeling normal? Idk if its just becauss im going against what ive known my entire life or what but can someone please help me?

 

I knew deep down for a while but the first time I kissed a guy I was very confused and felt wrong. We are programmed from birth to believe that being gay is not normal; no matter how gay friendly some countries appear to be. Don't worry, the feeling fades.

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it was your first time + it was something you had never done before + you probably wound yourself up emotionally and/or mentally on what/how it should be. i wouldn't read too much into the first kiss. some have it perfect, others not so much.

i always knew i liked guys, but my first kiss was pretty bland. it didn't do anything to make me consider girls though. and now that i've kissed a lot more guys since then, i can still say that kissing some guys is absolute bliss, and with others you start thinking of what you're gonna wanna have for dinner or whether to go watch that new movie that came out. something that shouldn't happen at all when your tongue is in someone's mouth. you shouldn't be able to think at all at that moment. point is, there are kisses that are amazing and leave you weak in the knees, and there are others that you can't wait to get over with. it doesn't show your sexuality, it shows your compatibility with another person.

inside, you know whether you want to be with guys or not. you don't need a kiss or a fuck to confirm/overthrow that.

 

Just to be sure kiss him several more time in different situations.

 

Might be interesting to kiss him in various places on his body too. If that does work send him to me and I'll give you an opinion

 

I remember my first kiss as well as my first time having sex. The guilt I felt after kissing was nothing like the guilt I had after I had sex. I have to thank my major for being one source that helped me realize why I felt guilty and bad for liking what I like and why allowing myself to feel that way was unjust. Our society constantly translates the message that being gay is wrong, not "normal", sinful, and many other messed up things. I had to come to terms with the messages society at large tells me every day and what I have found to be my truth. One reason being gay is called being part of the Family is in part because we can all share in how we are made to feel bad for being who we are, and the worst part is often times its us making our selves feel bad. I digress and rant, in response to your post, your kiss may have felt wrong, but thats just a reaction to doing something you perceive is not accepted by others, similar to the fear of being found out. In time and with more kisses you will lose that bad feeling. Just try to relax next time and let your self get caught up in the moment. There aren't many things better than a passionate kiss.