my thoughts

I sit and contemplate all the things iv done and wonder why I chose the path I went down ... Life was a dream until the thread of life started to unravel ... Endlessly I scramble to follow my words of wisdom disappointment overwhelms me daily why is forward motions impossible at this stage in my borrowed life

 

Sometimes I lie awake at night and think about all the awkward things I've done, and start cringing with each thought.


Criiiiinge.

 

You won't ever grow as a person fretting about the past. Use it, learn from your mistakes, and look towards the future.

 

to infinity and beyond

 

You need a hooker and a shower. It'll fix you right up.

 

i have cringed before......We should be cringing together under a tree where its nice and warm LOL

 

can you link me to this life thread? i can't find it anywhere.

 

How quickly they move on

 

First of all, you write beautifully, I truly mean that. You sew words together with elegance, it's a talent.
As Lodog said, don't worry about the past. What happened has happened. It seems that most of the time people tend to be beating themselves up about the past or worrying about the future. It's good to just try to relax and be aware of the present, moment by moment.
Don't let the past or present overwhelm you.
Forward motions are not impossible, I promise you. Your intentions mean more than you may think they do.

 

If I knew how I would I normally use my phone to post stuff

 

Its very speratic it will come when I'm as low as the souls of my feet ... And thank you I enjoyed your comment ... Could u elaborate on what u ment when u said my intentions mean more than I think

 

Well I personally believe in creating our own life experiences, in visualization. I know it sounds cheesy as hell, but I truly believe that if you want something enough, you visualize it happening and believe that it will happen no matter what, then it will come to you. This has proven to be true in my personal experiences. When I get some negative thoughts that have to do with doubting myself and my low self worth, fear gets it's foot in the door. If I don't try hard enough to get those negative thoughts to go away, then I easily slip into depression. On the other hand, when I incorporate positive affirmations and intentions for what I want for myself, then things seem to fall into place for me.
I know how cheesy that sounds, but I've gone through a lot of treatment and therapy and this is what works for me.
It doesn't mean ignoring your present situation, though. I accept what is and do what I can to make my life happier.
I hope I was able to shed some light on that for you. And I'm glad you enjoyed my comment, I meant it!

 

^ this.

 

i didn't make this one up. almost wish i had.

you don't stop playing when you get old.
you get old when you stop playing.

we do, hopefully, learn how to play a little quieter though.

 

Why do you think you chose the path you went down?

 

and when you try this and can no longer visualize it, or anything for that matter, then what?

 

Girls through them selves at me and I was amazed that some one finally liked me and when it happened my confidence grew as It grew
Sex drove me forward I'd kiss a different girl daily because I could and after a while I just got used to it and had forgotten how hard it was in the past to even have a girl even notice me .... Its a lot of other things as well but that's for another day

 

Days have gone by smiles and darkness has over taken me in the moment .breathing for the moment doesn't seem to comprehend that life drouls on meeting new people is only a fase of life soon ill be old and alone when my furture wife is gone ... We wish to live one more day but why live when today is the day not tomorrow or yesteryear .... Finding your self in the music played daily to mend a broken (what ever that thing is) ..... My dreams seem to escape from my fingurs daily as new ones rise from their ashes ... Good bye reply with a quote of life if u desire

 

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