imagine never doing drugs

Where the hell would you be right now, what would you be doing, who would you be?

This baffles me on occasion. Then i get stoned.

 

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drugs meaning psychs? or just drugs in general? i'd probably still be doing what i'm doing, but i'd be a whole different type of person.

 

This has actually tripped me out too, especially this week for some reason. Because I see people who just aren't into to drugs, or drinking for that matter, but seem to be so much more satisfied with reality and I'm just wondering what I'm doing wrong. How they can go on without the occasional trip or escape from reality only feeds my wonderment. Usually though they're just really religious in some form and that totally dispels any mysteries as to how they put up with reality. How did Marx put it? "Religion is the opiate of the masses."? or something like that. So fucking true.

Aldous Huxley sort of wrote about this or the relation of drugs and spiritual experience and religion in The Doors of Perception. Such an incredible book.

I dunno where I'd be. I hate speculating.

 

1> i'd still be in catholic private school (prolly getting really good grades too)
2> i'm not sure i'd still be interested in art, i might just be really depressed, maybe dead
3>i'd be an annoying emo kid, with a whole lot of problems.

 

1) Thousands of dollars richer.

 

I think I'd be a completely different person, with different friends, a different taste in music, and regular day to day life would probably get me down as it does to most people...I think I would still be seriously depressed, have anxiety....and not have a clue as to whats reality really is, or isn't for that matter and I don't think I'd be any richer as instead of blowng money on drugs I would blow it on superficial materialistic things that make me happy for about 3 days

 

I would be a lifeless twit in a dead end job; never questioning why the texture of reality is the way it is. Using such dull dialogue and bantering on about my empty life. I am quite sure I would have no theology at all.

 

I feel like that.

There was a time when I was completely happy in sobriety (no drugs, not even on occasion) of course I was about 15 and 16 at the time and there was a sort of innocence, a happiness about my life then that I have not regained. I dunno whether that just has to do with being a carefree teenager then or if it had to do with my mind and body not being so polluted. I miss that feeling though.
If I had never started doing drugs then I would probably have graduated from college by now or somthing and I would just be further along in my life professionally.My thoughts and perception about life in general would probably be different.....a little less shaken up maybe........but I dont really regret anything.........I dont think.

 

....And then there are those of us who are sincerely happy with our own reality.

 

id prolly be poorer. a lot of money SPENT on drugs is made by drugs. or you just "find a way" if you really need to get high.

 

How do you do it? Show me the light.

 

i dont have to imagine, i dont do them, never have

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No drugs here, either, so I don't have to imagine very hard.

I bet if I were on drugs, I'd be eating chocolate chip cookie dough right about now.

 

haha that happened to me bout a week ago never thought bout posting it but thats crazy

 

Drugs...hrm to me drugs are more like a lifestyle. The openmind that comes with them, the music, the attitute. I would try most and drug except Heroin, Crack, or meth. And i dotn regret smoking weed, takin acid or takin X

 

"....And then there are those of us who are sincerely happy with our own reality. "

You're only 18. Tell me that in 5 years.

 

i just thought about this again and came to this conclusion: There are a lot of ups and downs associated with this kind of lifestyle. However before i took anything, i was pretty fucked up, doing drugs fucked me up more at first, but i can see behind things easier, and deal with things rationally, instead of exploding like an insaine apemaniac. I tried to kill myself numerous times before doing drugs, now i just risk killing myself every time i do drugs. blahahh.

 

to elaborate further...

when i had never taken drugs, i was pretty dull, i was very naive to many things, and gulliable. in fact, right before i started smoking pot, i started hanging out with the wrong crowd and going towards that lifestyle. but as the years went on, and the more pot i smoked, i became more aware, and less gulliable. pot had made me more social, so i started branching out to other people. i became more interested in the music i was playing, because i ejnoyed doing it more when i was stoned. and then i came to college and took mushrooms, which totally made me look at my life in more than just black and white, but rather in a spectrum of different colors. not to sound like a "druggie", but i felt like i had just started to learn more about my being, and about life in general... and now i just feel like i'm on that quest. now i feel that drugs can only further my experiences, especially with music. i can only become more creative...

 

i know what you mean by "the quest". I'm an indipendent recording artist myself, and i think you nailed everything on the head.

One thing to add though. For a number of years drugs actually made me more gullible about other things about how life works and humans act/are. So i guess i was in a gullible loop before drugs, then a "drug soaked gullible loop" and now im in some sort of "life quest loop" free from many of the ignorance of my pre-drug days, and far less of the dellusions of my "eat acid like candy days".