why ME?!

I like life... but i hate MY life... Seriously, I have every horrible genetic gene there is, out of all the people, why must i have them all?

Firstly, i'm only 17... and i have: (this may get personal)

- massively large hips for a guy, i'm extremely skinny (6"3 and only 130lbs) yet i have to wear jeans with like a 32-34 waste because my hips are so massive...
- i have big puffy nipples and slight man-boobs, yet i'm extremely skinny everywhere else?!
- i'm rapidly balding already, again... i'm only 17, i can already see baldness...
- I have a big jewish nose
- I have a abnormally large adams apple
- my penis is fucked up and has a massive downwards arch
- I have horrible anxiety and get minor panic attacks all the time
- I'm extremely shy
- I have nervous ticks and twitch constantly due to anxiety
- no matter how much i eat/work out i remain a twig, with large hips -_-
- I have quite a lack of friends, and i'm not even smart or a nerd

And to top it off, i'm not even ugly... theres quite a few girls that actually say i'm hot, or good looking, and i see people check me out all the time... i even have an extremely beautiful girlfriend! My face is pretty good looking (minus the large nose and adams apple) and i have a pretty good sense of fashion... so i look good on the outside, but... whats under those cloths is hideous, but nobody but me has seen that... so, i could be popular with a bunch of friends, except my shyness and extreme anxiety prevents me from that all aswell, fml

Life just sucks in general, i have the worst genetics and its depressing...

 

Oh! and how could i forget this? This is almost the woorst part...

I am honestly, probably the hairiest 17 year old in the entire world... and no, that is not an exaggeration... I swear to god, from my waist down, i'm pretty much a monkey, not even kidding... its extremely thick, long, dark hair... i seriously have to shampoo my legs or else they'll get greasy cause all the hair, i cant even just wash them with soap cause soap makes hair greasy...

i've never ever worn shorts in public... and i've been like this since about gr.9...

FML

 

i'm having a hard time picturing this

 

I'm having a hard time living like this... lol

 

lol aw, im sure its not as bad as you're describing it.

we are our own worst critics lol.

 

no no, its pretty bad

the large nose, adams apple, hips, ect. are facts... pictures don't lie lol

and honesty, the hair thing is just bizarre... i don't understand how its possible for one to be THIS hairy, either i devolved or i'm half ape... only from the waist down though, its funny cause i actually grew arm pit hair waay later than everyone else, even though i'm lke half monkey...

 

Sure your genetics are fucked.

But are you raped everyday by your parents?
Do your parents abuse you until you see death?
Do you get shot at?
Have you ever shot anyone?
Have you ever been in prison?
Are you starving?
Do you have Cancer?
Do you have aids?

Etc.

Think about it this way. Life is an adventure you may not have the best looks and may not be charming. But if you didn't you wouldn't have the experience. The ones with the worst lives provide insight for the ones that need it. And with all these emotions you feel you will be one of the better people on this planet. Really, someone who leads a perfect life and is extremely hot has things handed to them for these reaasons. They either end up dumb with no education cause they are too hot for school or spend there whole adult lives with a handful of friends because nobody is good enough for them.

I have anxiety/panic disorders like yourself, it truly has fucked with me socialy. I have been to parties and smoked weed and it shot it through the roof. I just sat and stared at the wall because I was afraid everyone would judge and make fun of me for who I am. But now I realize, the people I wanted to hang out with so badly are terrible people. Sure good at the heart, but the things they do is terrible. For instance, cheating on all of their partners. Getting drunk and harrassing ther friends to impress others, disaknowledging feelings and fighting over the most dumb shit you can imagine.

It's ridiculous, society is going to collapse. I dont know how kids these days think, it hurts just thinking about it. I am sure you will realize your defects are actually a blessing.

Goodluck my friend, And as a famous rapper once said: FUCK THE HATERS!

 

^ Holla deep!

 

But the thing is, i'm still not that bright (even though i classify myself as one of the most intelligent people i know, within my age group that is) even though i have some of the worst grades... i'm more informed about, other things... i find school to be a major waste of my time and i usually and lack the effort...
And i also still only have a couple friends... so its not like these genetics gained me brains and good friends...

its almost as if i fit in with nobody... i don't have the friends, looks, or brains... i don't fit in with the popular people, and i also don't fit in with the nerdy people... like at my school, there isn't really any "jock" or "cool" people group... theres just all the "popular" white kids that hang out together, then all the "popular" brown kids that hang out together, then theres the freakishly weird people... and thats pretty much it, i fit into none of them... so its just me, and 2 of my other friends, not many people know us and we're just kind of... there... yet i have a girlfriend that is actually quite popular but shes usually with her friends at school, i'm always invited to hang out with them but when i do its just awkward... i don't belong...

Don't you ever feel as if you don't belong? I definitely don't belong in society mentally... and even physically, i just seem awkward... not to mention my anxiety and being anti-social doesn't help... but maybe i'm anti-social because i simply don't belong?

 

There is nothing wrong with any of these things.. It's just something you're just going to have to get over. You admit that girls think you're hot, so just run with it. Stop trying to change yourself.

I have the same problems, and I take lots of medication for it and go to therapy. It would probably do you some good.

I isolate myself and to be honest, I like not having friends in real life to bother me. If you want to make friends you have to become friends with yourself first really, so go to therapy, see a psychiatrist and help yourself before it gets worse.

My sister things that is the sexiest thing in the world and only dates hairy men.

I have never worn shorts in public.


All in all, what you need to do is take a deep breath, look in the mirror and realize that it isn't all that bad. If you're really that upset about it, go get some professional help. Otherwise, all of the things you listed, are completely fine and completely normal. You're only 17, when I was 17 I was 5'2'' and I weighed 240 pounds, more than most grown men, I was a fat, sloppy looking, and all of it was on top of my SEVERE depression and anxiety. It's not going to get better unless you try to get over all of these things you think is wrong with you. There is nothing at all wrong with you, based on the description you gave.

Good luck to you, hopefully you can break out of your petty funk

 

Thanks, this was pretty helpful! But i noticed how the balding part isn't red its probably my highest concern... its not to bad, like... its just thinning a bit on the top, but i'm always so paranoid about it, i never want to go bald! i'd be fine with it if i were in my 40s.. but i'm 17... i'm always the guy with the best hair and crazy fohawks, i can't picture myself being bald...

I don't know why i'm so anti-scoail and shy, i have no real reason to be... girls always hit on me and compliment my looks, i have an extremely good looking girlfriend, and lots of people attempt to talk to me... but i can just never keep a conversation going unless i've talked to the person a bunch of times, like a really close friend, all i can ever think of to say is "haha... oh... haha... yea....oh..." etc... I hate anxiety and being shy

 

it's probably not as bad as you are saying, got a pic?

we all have our own issues...

 

You fit in with me. That means we exist. You will find others, we are jsut rare.

 

Sounds like a hormone problem.

When a man's testosterone levels are too high, he will generally develop both exaggerated male traits (body hair, adam's apple) and female traits that shouldn't be there to begin with (breasts, hips) since the body tries to compensate for the extra testosterone by increasing estrogen levels as well. That's what I've heard happens to guys who take (too much of) a testosterone supplement, at least.

 

Keep your chin up

 

Whoa thats crazy, because i actually do have very high testosterone levels. I always thought it was a good thing but apparently not

 

What exactly is the problem? That you don't find Yourself attractive? Just accept your looks and that you're 'unique.' You said you have a beautiful girlfriend so bee happy about that.
Like you, I also suffer from (extreme) anxiety and shyness..
on top of that, I also have ocd..
Depression that gets pretty bad sometimes...
and the worst thing that has been affecting me psychologically- type 1 diabetes (which I've had since I was 8 years old). My pancreas doesn't work at all. This is an essential organ for a human to live. I feel like crap often because this organ doesn't function. I have to give myself four injections of insulin daily and test my blood sugar levels. This has been going on for 18 years. I feel like I lost my child hood...from diabetes and also from some other things I won't mention. Also before anyone says diabetes is controlled with diet..type 1 diabetes is not. Type 1 & Type 2 diabetes are very different.
So yeah it could be worse than what you're complaining about..and even way worse than things I just mentioned..
I think the most important thing a person can have is their health.

...I hope that didn't come off as rude because it wasn't meant to be
What I was trying to get at is, be grateful for your health..be grateful for your girlfriend too. Anxiety isn't a very big health concern. It's fairly common..and I know it sucks to live with but anxiety and shyness can be charming in their own right (atleast I think so)

 

I'd hit it

 

haha SuperPsych has a point

I didn't mention how I'm oddly attracted to strange looking people...
All of my significant others have been Freaks of nature

 

Balding isn't a huge deal.. I'm 20 years old and have tons of grey hair and my hair is thinning. I also have hormonal disorders that cause me to be a little bit more hairy than a woman should be and also causes me to be more aggressive and overweight than I should be.