My Big Lesbian Crush on my Coworker..

Hello everyone!

I am in need of some advice: within the past three months, I have developed a HUGE crush on my coworker. A little background: I am 25, a lesbian and I have been with my girlfriend for three years and we live together. Believe it or not, our relationship is good! The reason I mention this is because I know that some would suggest that the reason I am crushing on my coworker is because I feel that there is something missing from my relationship and that very well could be, but I feel there is more to it.

I developed these feelings during our work holiday outing in December to a local bar. Admittedly, I had a few drinks and when I glanced over at the table I suddenly realized how attractive my coworker was. The "beer goggles" wore off, obviously, but I still find her irresistable. Just a little background on my coworker: She is 26 and married to a man. They have been together for five years. Pump the brakes, right? Not really...she is married strictly for the health insurance, in her exact words.

We are friends, I should mention that and frequently text. Last month, I text her that sometimes I found her attractive and that I wasn't quite sure what to do with it. She texted back that she admittedly feels the same. When I asked her if we should act on it she said she needed to think. Fast forward three weeks, her and I have a conversation on the phone on the topic and she told me that when she thinks about me, she never indulges in it because in order for us to pursue anything, I would need to break up with my girlfriend and she with her husband. So, to kiss her, I would need to give up a lot...what scares me is that my feelings for her have developed so much that I'm slowly starting to consider it. Is it horrible that I want to kiss her to see if her and I have the electricity that I think we have?


The last time my girlfriend and I had sex, when I climaxed I thought of my coworker...See, this is bad...

I won't let myself be alone with her because I'm worried that I'll do/say something really dumb.

Thoughts anyone?

Thank you for taking the time to read this jumble of thoughts.

 

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