I am a Child Molester?

Was this childhood experimentation or a some sort of juvenile relationship or was this child molestation?

I was 15 1/2 and she was seven. I had been friends with her since she was 5 and started to run around, her pet name with me was ema.

I babysat her. My brother was a quiet introvert so he left the responsibility with me. I don't know why/how but she had a scrap maybe on her lower tummy, and for some reason she showed me her hurt lower tummy and at that moment she become an object of affection.

In time we would kiss, I would fondle her, she would pet me and I would pet her but it never went farther than that. This went on for a 1 year and 1/2. I never forced her or told her not to tell anyone. She picked up that this was our special thing other people wouldn't like. We played games, when she was bored like she would tell me today I could only touch her feet. She always asked me why I loved her.

I loved her, more than her little feet or bright blue eyes. I love playing make believe, I loved making up stories, hearing what was bothering her.

When I came back from college if I touched her she would tell me "no" so I wouldn't though sometimes she'd sit on my lap or play footies with me at the table and then get really upset if I reciprocated. But always I listened to her. Always I cared. She told me once she really appreciated how I listen to her, that no else really listen to what she was saying. Her father is strange and her mom is distant so I think she really needed someone to be there for her. (none sexually when she was 10-12)

Skip to present day (she's 13), we're having dinner with the family, Ema and my current gf are all around the table. At the end of dinner Ema says something like my gf is cute and kind and something cliche and sweet about if my gf gets mean and ugly dump her because I deserve someone really good.

I think I was a child molester, but my first gf said we were just kids experimenting that I never forced her, she doesn't hate me, that it was mutual, I think my first gf only could see that matter from her perspective ( the one of someone who loves me)

there's no doubt I'm a pedo, I like the bodies of pre-teen girls but fortunately I also like full grown women and I like their minds much more, so much in fact that it's no contest, so while I may want to fondle a pre-teen girl, a good woman is a much more real and fulfilling option.

 

I May Be Mistaken, But Didn't You Make A Thread Like This About

2 Years Ago....??



Cheers Glen.

 

almost 16 is way old enough to know better, kids have been registered as sex offenders for less..

 

never made a poll of it so it's really hard to tell what the actual majority of people thought.

and now me and ema are on really good terms. I thought that as soon as she turned into an adult she would be out for my blood. Sometimes I wonder if my first gf was right I was/am too hard on myself.

It's freaky Ema being so kind, I need to be reminded that I am still in the wrong, I will always be; it's very easy to put it behind me and say she's fine with it maybe I should just forget the whole affair.

 

^^ This, Put It In The Past Where It Belongs, And Get On With Your Life....



Cheers Glen.

 

DO NOT convince yourself that you are someone bad, if all there was was an affectionate friendship based on mutual respect and love. DO NOT let anyone's negative words influence the way you feel about YOURSELF.

I've been called a pedo on here by some people myself, but I can tell you right now that I AM NOT. And it doesn't matter what everyone wants to believe. Nothing can change the fact that I've NEVER molested ANYONE. Remember, these people on here can only read the words you type. They don't KNOW what you're really like in person. DO NOT let THEM decide who and what YOU are.

The girl sounds like she's grown up to be an alright young lady...from what you tell us. Assuming that's accurate, we can't conclude that any damage has been done. I'd even venture to say it was a necessary friendship/relationship at the time. I've had those myself.

I wouldn't say you should forget what happened. I'd say, embrace it, and remember it as a positive memory rather than something bad. You and your young friend are close. That's a good friendship in my opinion. Don't pretend like the past was something to be ashamed of. It's part of what strengthened the bond between you. Remember it as something special.

Maybe I shouldn't have said anything about this, but I just couldn't stay silent. Being convinced that you're some kind of harmful being when you're NOT is the WORST thing you can do to YOURSELF. And I know this from my own experience. I don't want the same thing to happen to you, because it really fucks you up in the head. If you can see that the past has somehow helped her, and you too, then DO NOT worry.

By the way, I didn't choose the answer from the poll... I couldn't, because I didn't see the choice that best described the situation.

All the best!

 

I believe that your desires and your actions were once terrible, but you were a young teenager. If your desires are still there today, and you would carry out the same actions, you would be in jail. I suggest you see a professional about your feelings.

I would not feel comfortable having you babysit my 7 year old daughter if I had one. I also commend you for being concerned enough to have a poll and tell everyone who wants to read about it, your problems. I agree with Glen, move on and keep in your past. Stick with older women dude.

 

Yeah, he did a poll just like this a few years back.
At least once a year there's a thread by him trying to get people to say that way he did was OK and that he's not a bad person.
Maybe he's not a 'bad' person but he's definitely a sick-ass person, who's been having problems for the seven years I've been watching him post here.

But my 'fav' Sini thread is this one: http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=99993

 

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