If my mind wants me to be an animal... Info?

I guess this is where I should put this thread, but for a little introduction. I come from a loosely religious family. My birth parents have a very creative mind, birth-mother was an artist, & b-sister became a cosmetologist (?). My (now) parents (adopted from birth) are both geologists, and my father works for an oil company now, so they're business oriented. They gave me a middle-income childhood, sports & toys, and an upper level income education, so I was a typical kid growing up and through middle school we attended a Unitarian Universalist church for a few years, and I wasn't very interested in God and ultimately blew what the "sunday school" portion tried to teach. So whatever that background gives there it is, but here is what I wanted to know...
I've tried googling similar phrases many times, to try to find people who think like me, and have the same, I don't know.. "feeling"? But here it is, I'll lay it out.

A few days ago, as I was walking back from class I suddenly felt the winds breeze more sensitive on my body, I slowed down my pace to observe it.. I looked around nervous if someone was watching me and reluctant to see no one was, I stood still spreading my fingers out to feel the wind gently flow in between them. I felt really lifted all of a sudden like I couldnt have felt better anywhere else in the world. Suddenly my brain started to get excited with a new energy and sprung straight to the tips of my fingers and legs. It was a force that was telling me to crouch on the ground and stalk around. It was a burning I felt many times before, it was trying to call me to the ground and run and sprint on my hands and feet like an animal. I want to embrace it but, at the same time I can't. I don't live in the right place, Humanity is my deception. The feeling always comes to me whenever I'm watching a movie, with the same ideas, like Avatar and recently John Carter, humanoids acting animal like. I don't feel like a "furry," I feel i'm in the right body, I'm not trying to be a different animal, I just feel like I am a human animal and shouldn't be on two legs all the time. I'm also not a vegetarian, nor do I have the urge to be.

It started, around my Junior year of high school. It's basically a life philosophy but I don't know what it's called, or who else I can find to share it (or possibly to embrace it) with, so if anyone knows anything about this please share insight with me. Thanks..

 

sounds like it could be your Kundalini awakening!
do some research on that and see if it matches what you were feeling

and Welcome :cheers2:

 

Wow I think that really helped!
According to one of the first sites in the results, they say anxiety and alienation with the world is the beginning of the awakening, which I can completely compare with. Also the "eruption" that it eventually leads too, I can definitely feel a force creating momentum. The last few years, I have been feeling a bit alienated from many people and chose to spend my time alone, not because I don't like them, or am too shy/anxious to be around them but I just want the quiet and peacefulness. I'm also anxious naturally but i'm starting to feel that fade slowly, but I still shy away from talking to attractive women, but that get's fixed with time. So thanks, I will keep reading up on this! I guess I should definitely consider taking yoga now!

 

yes unfortunately I am not one of the few who has it thrown upon like that, but nevertheless im working on it my own. this great awakening will happen to everyone i believe and we all need to know its not a symptom of depression or bi-polar with the flood of feeling and emotions confronting you... good luck on your journey man

 

Many wishes to you, wow! I was confused, I had thought I was maybe depressed, because it was definitely a strange feeling with my senses suddenly becoming so sensitive and being filled with everything yet nothing all at once, i was also worried that the main of society (outside of this site) would call me crazy and if i expressed it, would lash at me for it.. should I let my animal instincts run through, and i'm usually not good with words in public, id prefer to speak or express in an intimate emotional way, not with rhetoric and word choices.. so how should i explain it if someone asks me about it? (my mind considers words as labels for emotions, so it doesnt really like them, which hinders me in normal life)

 

haha i totally hear you on the whole words restricting ya know...
just do the best you can i guess and try and help others in the same direction as you as we are all one, so this should be for us all to share

 

how do i find people who do feel the same as us? like in a local area, i want to find friends who have the same beliefs as I do.. I go to a college but in a mostly conservative texas town.. i would just like to just say "hey are you guys feeling this such and such too" but they'd just think im stoned or crazy.. which would be really counter productive because its not the same feeling, and i doubt any of them would know what kundalini is (like me until now), unless they've taken a few real yoga classes.. i guess i will have to read into all of this much more and just talk to people who seem open and good luck on yours! i just wish showing people our ways was easier but i understand that for most the way you are raised as a child is very much reinforced ideas you will keep as you grow older

 

still working on that myself... i think we're all at that point.
once everyones dna is activated ill find you

 

im just guessing here, but maybe if we visually see a very magical and natural thing it will click? i think i started getting this feeling when avatar first came out, the yearn for that beautiful society inside of the forest, i felt it could happen in real life, every part of me wanted it.. but i usually dont like to cite movies as a source of inspiration but that is how you keep a reaction (of inspiration and invisionment? ha) going, by causing a chain! ill keep reading and now i know what the feeling is called and how it follows, i can start searching for others! i definitely hope to see you in this lifetime friend!

 

i don't believe the species shape of a body has anything to do with being a sapient being or not. people on other worlds are unlikely to look like people on this world, are even not unlikely to be imediately recognizalbe as being people.

so i'm a bit unclear about "being an animal". being a person is a subset of being an animal, not a thing seperate and apart from it.

and no, i don't mean by that that we can't or don't have souls, but rather that even less sapient life forms may be sould as well.

it is our creative nature alone, and the result of that creative nature, the degree to which we surround ourselves with artifacts created by our species, that distinguishes us from the less sapient life forms of our own planet.

so again, i don't get what is being meant by "being an animal".

i am well familiar though with people feeling that they more comfortably belong to be some other shape of appearance then human.

i think that's perfectly fine and harmless.

 

I'm sorry for the late reply, but yes I do if one was to really interest me, do you have some book titles?

and by being an animal, it is a vague term but i just wanted to get the title out of my head, i mean to be.. like wild, primal, and closer to nature, not above it like we are.. but with everything we know, i dont think people would be able to do that, nor would they want to.

 

Thank you, I'll start reading it when I get time, I'm a terribly slow reader, but please by all means post similar books, I'm all of a sudden really into finding who and what I really am

 

the only thing you are is your true self. your body, whatever life form, gender or anything else, is something that doesn't last very long, that has almost nothing to do with what you really are, but interacting with a physical universe mostly depends on it.

oh and "it"s called furry. well it's one aspect of furry, or anthro. not everyfur feels their soul would fit better in body of some simpler species, but there are many who do. so don't feel like the lone stranger about it.

 

Themnax, I dont think i fully understand what you mean, are you saying my body or form im in right now isn't really me, but i have to become it for reasons this world puts down?

and on the furry bit, I know about furs but the act of dressing up in a costume and.. all their lingo just chills me. I understand they're very kind people, but Id feel very uncomfortable around a bunch of people dressed up in costumes pretending to be something they're not.. hmm i guess my statement's kind of conflicting with the whole of society.. but you understand where i'm coming from, right?

 

no. you don't have to become it at all. it is like the clothes you wear, although it is also more like an astronaut's space suit in that living in and interacting with this world that surrounds us depends on it. but like an astronaut's space suit, or a fine suit of clothes, it has absolutely nothing to do, with who or what you actually are at all.

(and yes, granted, a fur suit is also just another suit of clothes. but fursuiting isn't more then a tenth of what furry is about. what its more about is accepting that diversity is the one and only true nature of reality. (and about expressing this in any and every form of art, which is what involves nine times as many of us as fur suiting does) and of course, furry isn't the only path to that recognition, i only mention it because, in a sense, it is precisely how you started out yourself describing. or what it sounded like to me that you were anyway.)

also to answer meagain: close but no ceegar on the true self. that is the ocean of which the true self is the particluar drop that it is. not isolated from it of course, yet still also uniquely distinct and distinguishable. furrys arent furrys because they "have to play games". "playing games" as you descirbe it, is however, far more grantifying then trying to pretend everything has to begin and end only with what we think we know about it. (which it is a lie to ourselves to try and pretend any such thing)