does anyone here really want to get old? i'm talking old old, where your weak, drooling on yourself, not being able to walk without feeling pain, possibly with cancer...who wants to put up with that shit??? i hope i won't be alive that long...hell i dont even want to get past forty. at least die with dignity, even if it is suicide, because dying with a soiled diaper on and eating and breathing through a tube is much more degrading that a bullet to the head or overdose or something.... i had a conversation with someone about suicide and getting old yesterday and i honestly dont know why people see suicide as such a horrible thing...especially the retards who say 'killing yourself just sends you straight to hell, no matter how you were in life' i say kill yourself before you get old...getting old is just a dying very slowly, little by little, so why not speed it up and get it over with
tomorrow you could get hit by a car and become a veggie drooling on yourself... better be safe and kill yourself right now................
getting old scares me as well. i used to think i would be dead by the time i was 21, im still here.i honestly dont know how long i will live. there must be a reason ,but one im not sure of yet. today i heard the song hurt and i cried. it was odd.
migu that was a good poem, it made me think of my grandpa's whole situation before he died of cancer. and thanks for the good advice whispers...i've actually already told my family that if i ever do become a vegetable they need to just pull the plug...i'm not sure they would do it for sure, they'll let me linger on for months before they finally decide to drop me.
nine inch nails 'hurt'? i've got it playing right now...*sigh* the story of my life...it's made me cry before too
with age comes wisdom...and as bad as getting old sounds, it cant be that bad. I imagine myself when im in my 70's with a long bushy beard and an acoustic guitar, just strumming all day, dreaming of how my life was, the beautiful parts, and the gloomy ones. I know i would never commit suicide...not cause society and religion deem it as something wrong and you automatically going to hell, just cause i wont to experience every little bit of life and what i have left. I look at the elderly, the ones that are vegetables, and it looks dreadful, but then i look at my grandpa, he is 80, and doesnt look a day past 60, and has the spirit of a 20 year old...i would hope to be like that.
My grandmother died in the stables of a heart attack or aneurysm or something when she went out to feed the cows. She was eighty something and managed to take care of herself on her own. This was 20 years ago or something. I think that is a good way to pass away and that we shouldn't try too keep people alive at the expense of any decent life quality. I don't want to wear dipers during the last years of my life, I hope nature will give me a nice compromise and take me out at a proper age (75 maybe). But I would never kill myself actively, god or no god, suicide is such a waste. Maybe I'd just stop eating when I felt that death was closing in on me. I've heard some old people do that.
I think I'd rather die in pain than in disgrace. But I guess I'll see about that later... Edit: Life isn't that bad really, it's just alot of things around me that's fucked up and that's hardly my fault. I can always find something to amuse myself with anyway.
