I have now joined a dating agencey as I know it will not work out for the escort and me. I was just kidding myself that it would work out. In the end I have had some fun and I will keep seeing her til I find my Miss Right as I really like her and she seems to like me and there is no harm being done. I started seeing her at Christmas when my life was not on track and now I am starting to sort my life out. In the end of the day I will walk away from this with some really great memories and I hope to make some more really great memories before I stop seeing her.
My advice is if you are seeing a regular escort every so often do not fall in love with her. Yes she may really like you and yes the sex might be the best you have ever had she may even sort of love you but 9 times out of 10 there is something dark stopping her from really loving someone. She needs the money so she will do what she has to and some weeks she will be really into seeing you and other weeks not so much. She may tell you she want to change but for some reason she just can't stop doing this cos she has bills to pay and likes to buy nice clothes. 9 times out of these sort of people will not change. If it starts to get to heavy they will cool doown for a bit and not want to see you as much as they have done in the past. I am glad I met this escort and glad we had some fun together just fun is all it is.
the first post is about a month old, and apparently the OP's thoughts have evolved since then... see :
I guess I should chime in, since I have experience with this: I have had feelings for escorts, and escorts have had feelings for me. But, the only way I find to truly ascertain whether or not an escort has feelings for me, is if I don`t pay. Which, has happened on 4 occasions. The one escort I became infatuated by, did not reciprocate my feelings or spend off time with me. It hurt badly, but after asking her out twice, I stopped seeing her and moved on. This is the precarious thing about prostitution (as well as one night stands) that I do not like: I`d rather be able to have feelings for the person I`m fucking. Prostitution has been awesome to me, I`ve learned lots from it, and I suppose I`ll keep hiring prostitutes all my life. But to me, it is no substitute for mutual relationships. I`ve only recently, after 3 years, had sex with a girl who wasn`t a hooker. And, even though it isn`t the end-all and be-all for me, it is also important and distinct from the needs that are met by pros.
I now have really big feeling for this person. and I figer that until I get a girlfriend from this dating site I have joined I will keep seeing her. Its not perfect but I have no other female in my life to hang out with and be romantic with and she knows what I like and I know what she likes and she dose me a really cheap deal. So thats the way it is for me now. I can't just walk away from her now as I am having fun with her.