How do you deal with....

I have the gnarliest scar... Makes sex awkward. The dude's always like, "what the fuck is this? Why is there a huge scar from your ass hole to the middle of your cheek?!"

 

I smell troll!

 

I tried to get unemployment because my boss fired me while I was on medical leave and the state denied ne because I "quit" and wasn't able to work the weeks I was looking for work. All total fucking bullshit.
Fuck the state of California.

 

What?

 

Well. it seems obvious you had a very troubled childhood and poor parenting. Do you still live with your parents ? You are 23 years old. You seem locked into a neurotic struggle to please your parents. Are you dependent on them for your financial needs at this time ? If not you need to move out on your own and break away from this toxic living situation.
Listen: There is PRIMAL THERAPY and it does work. It is very different from the usual talk therapy which NEVER resolves anything. You FEEL your way through the different neurotic, unresolved feelings that were imprinted in your brain during your childhood. This involves crying and getting angry and expressing these feelings in a healing way. You can learn all about PRIMAL THERAPY here if you wish to: http://www.primaltherapy.com/

I wish you well and do understand just how difficult it is to deal with these issues because I had them, or my own very different variation of unresolved feelings. ...Oscar

 

rather than unemployment, maybe go for disability payments. this can take a while though


I too am skeptical that the doctors had to go through your asshole to take a tumor from your butt cheek. w/e

is there another relative that you could live with?

 

oh, maybe try meditation. it can make you more chill.

sorry about your situation, also your sister's illness and your brother's death.

 

The tumor was the size of a golf ball when I first found it, it is very close to my rectum. It actually got so big it ruptured my anus.

 

it ruptured your anus, and you're still full of shit!

 

Google anal fistula.

God I'm so fucking over people.
I can't wait till the apocalypse.

 

chill chill.. you've made it to 23, you can make it to 24. Look or think of job ideas for then, I suppose. Good luck.

 

51. No matter what it is, it is somebody's fetish. No exceptions.



no excuse for being lonely..

 

OK, I was following all along up until ^ came up out of nowhere...then the whole senario kept getting stranger...at least to me.

But (by some miracle, imo) you still got a job; but, due to this surgery you had to be off work and got fired? but denied unemployment or ANY help whatsoever even tho' SURELY to God you have some proof this was medical leave...because I cannot understand why you wouldn't have discussed this with an employer and them know...since it is a condition which has been going on for a while, right?

I'm just in the mood to UNDERSTAND, and I'm having problems with that.

I am quite sure there is a condition which you have described and it could possibly have physical problems combined with needed (invasive) surgery required to really have any kind of life. I am just finding it hard to believe all the rest...but I don't think it is impossible.

IF this all were actually true, I'm sure and certain that at age 23 I'd have told them ALL to KISS MY RED & SCARRED ASS, and most likely where to put their lists and rules and bla bla. I would probably be as mean as hell, and they'd get me some meds or something, ESPECIALLY if you are going through all this. They would clean up after themselves, cook their meals, and wash their own damn clothes. I would find it impossible to be nice, or accept their control willingly, without whining and bitching the entire time...but that is just me.

You should definitely be qualified for disability of some type. Granted, it takes a little bit to get it going...but if you will start the process NOW, it may go faster than you think. Contact your local congressman...I've seen that do wonders for some people around here.

Hope things get better. :mickey:

 

I had a job before I found the tumor. I was in so much pain I couldn't turn over in bed. Let alone stand up all day at work. I never called hr and asked for a medical leave, at the time I didn't know how extensive my health issues are. If I had known what I know now, I would have called. *kickin myself in the head for that*