Starting over

So, I think I need to make some changes in my life. The past few years i've really been slackin off and doing drugs and what not. Not giving a fuck about school or work or anything. I have spent so much money on weed/alcohol/ecstasy etc... fucking waste

I would be done with community college right now and at a university but I suck so fucking bad at math i need to stay for another year just for math basically.. I really have not had any motivation. I do want to get the fuck out of where I live but that doesnt seem to motivate me enough.If I dont pass my math final on tuesday, ill fucking go insane. Im also still pretty shy around people at times and I hate that as well. Always turning red as a tomatoe when i talk to a cute girl and what not. I want to be more outgoing but its kind of difficult for me. Most of the time I just sit in my room and watch tv and eat or use internet.

I started going to the gym reguarly two months ago so that is something positive. I think I might cut my hair and get my ears pierced again. Just for a new self image so when I look at myself i see a different person and know i am starting over. I need to start eating healthier as well.

There is also this girl who works at a little fast food type place right next to my work. She is really pretty but the only thing i ever say to her is my order..

Im pretty sure i can stay away from drugs (besides alcohol, i only drink like twice a month, no reason to stop that completely) and i am gonna start working harder at the gym so i can get bigger. I also hate how dam white i am, i am fucking white as paper and everyone else here in so cal looks african next to me. I feel like an outcast!

And to top this all off, Manchester United didnt win the title this season, manchester City scored two goals in EXTRA time. yes 2 goals in fucking extra time today to win the title. This will probably put me even deeper in depression now!!! fuck those wankers.

I hope by september/october i see a pretty big difference and can maybe ask out fast food place girl

Thanks for reading!!! It was nice to vent a little bit.

 

Don't use "and what not" in everyday conversation and she's yours dude.

 

I dont really use "and what not" when i actually speaking. Only when typing for some reason..

 

your still young man you got time dont let it be a burden

 

Actually I'm gonna say it at work a lot tonight to see if catches on and what not.

 

If it does catch on and what not let me know and ill start using it..
And I only used it once in the post! >.<
anyways...

 

twice look again.

 

No, no.. you check again. I think you will be pleasently suprised.

 

You could help me with the whole motivation thing...
I'm sitting here ignoring the pile of homework on my desk.. lol

I have literally 5 more days of my senior year of high school.. I just need to get through exams and homeworkk ahh

 

Are we reading the same thing?

 

Why you edit my post

 

Senior year you be a breeze for the most part. Your motivation should be that you dont want to be a super senior and not graduate with your friends!

 

Life is about continually renewing and updating yourself. Let your outer image reflect who you are. Don't change things to look more like others or to please others. Make changes that make sense to you and make you feel good. That will show the world what you are about and you will begin to attract those who hold similar interests.

 

good luck to you!

 

I'm just having fun rollin.

I've had to change my life up a few times, and the gym helps.

good luck... nah I won't say it.

 

Yeah, I'd start over if I were a Man Utd fan too...

 

Better than those nobs from tottenham

 

HOMEWORK!!!!!!! :hide::leaving:


Just say you left it on the bus.

 

good luck, hope things work out well. ask the girl out! she'll only say yes or no.

 

Yep, unless you can rid yourself of that terrible affliction, what's the point anyway...?

I'd offer some advice but no one ever listens anyway.
You'll be fine, gl hf.

Oh, and drugs are okay. Don't give them a bad name just cause you can't moderate yourself.