I am at the bottem too far and in the middle/on the way up, kinda under. Know what I mean? I get so much trouble while I'm trying to get my work done, I sometimes give up and go home. I don't have a home computer, but even when I'm not working, every time I go out of the house, I get trouble. The sources are probably jeolous ex-boyfriends, but with most women, there isn't a crowd to work unaware of it. I end up frustrated and with nothing left to do but shriek myself to tears in frustration. I've tryed showing this usual surrounding to drive back at what's driving it, but there are times when it just won't cooperate, and that's when things get so intense I can no longer control the situation. The material I intend to put out is environmentally healthy and cruelty free living-oriented. I realize the importance level itself may be the source of the rise in the excitement level, however, these men in my life who hate me know how to use everything available from their perspective, to harrass and intimidate me, until my mood is entirely blown to pieces, and I can't be nice to anybody or anything, and THEN that negetivity attracts more trouble. Anyone have any suggestions?
Since this is a performing arts forum I suggest you express it. Write a song (if a musician), write a play, try to get a character who you can relate with on this, whatever is your strong point. Make the perfomance blinding and show it to as many people as you can. Blessings Sebbi
