Hello, well i'm bored haven't used a computer in a good bit pretty torn up with what I want to do to be with this person.. need some good advice. thank you. sorry about length, id say its a fairly interesting read though. I met him at a rainbow gathering, suits this website hah. His 'rainbow' name is Nada. The first day I met this person, me and about 8 people were piled in a white pickup truck going 60 down a small highway on our way back from a town run. its nighttime, a buck comes out of no where and bam we hit it instantly. by miracle no one is thrown out and every one is safe. we all get out, a few of us walk down to where the deer is. Me and nada are the only ones that bend down for a closer view, we are both praying for it. I still had not had a conversation with him. The deers horns had been snapped off no where to be seen. was quite baffling. He intrigued me ever sense then, we were inseparable for two weeks straight but it was not romantic at the time, at least not pursued. During that time I was able to connect with another human more than I ever have before, mutual understandings of eachothers mind. whenever I had something I wanted to say but was unsure, he would know and get me to speak up. telepathic like. it is something that has grown much. coming near the end of the gathering we decided we would travel together, we left with one other person. Didn't get very far, we were hitchhiking and a red neck cop pulls over and is butt hurt about us hitch hiking. Nada had a warrant down in tampa ( this is after the Apalachicola gathering) for skipping out on a court date, he had got arrested during a occupy tampa protest for 'assault on a officer' he was showing verbal aggression and didn't actually assault the guy. So we three are sitting there, then we realize Nada is being taken from us.. I start to cry. very intense weird emotional scene when I play it in my head still feels unreal, a lot of my life lately has felt un real compared to before but it defintely has its great moments. after They have put him in the backseat, I ask if I may say good bye to him , they give permission and roll down the window. have to look at him through bars on a god damn car door. I start crying again. more like tears streaming, looking into his eyes telling him he doesnt deserve this. his eyes start to tear up as well not like mine though. I kiss him for the first time in that moment... then he's gone. from there I hitchhike back to my home town with my friend apache. I find out the address of the place he was taken, we starts sending letters to each other. man does it take a long time to go back and forth. during that time I felt the most depressed about a person I ever had, this continuous droning pain that only let up when it was out of my mind. He's a beautiful writer, also drew me a few things as I him. He's been in there about 50 days I find a ride to go down to tampa, I was on a mission to visit him in jail. by surprise. I expected to be able to see him in person, but nooo de personlized fucking tv boxes and phones. but it was still worth it at the time. He was actually getting out in 10 more days. (he got left off good they dropped everything and he only had 60 days) I go back up north from there. once he gets out I start talking to him on the phone and texting every day, still am. he lives about 7 hours from me. This whole time span has been about 4 months.. not super long but I can say i've never told someone I loved them before.. I've never felt this familiarity and balance with someone before.. I found another ride last weekend and spent the weekend with him, it was bliss. the first day we were walking on the path near his apartments. little forestry area in the middle of the city. then a doe jumps out in front of us. Never seen a deer so close before, never experience animals sitings like that unless im by myself. when we had our real first physical connection, (not sex but close) it was very tantric. never experienced that with anyone before either. I didn't know exactly what tantric was till after the experience and how we were going about it was very similar. Theres still so much more I could say... but thats reallya short version of everything, its been beautiful its been painful because of how much I miss him... its scary being so vulnerable , its scary this telepathy we share knowing someone can sense you so much.. but its good too. He'ssupposed to be flying a plane up here pretty soon and we were going to try the traveling thing again. theres a chance that won't work out.. if it doesn't idk what im going to do.. I'm just praying it works out, imagining him by my side seems so un real. when I did see him it was just so dream like and perfect... crazy. thank you if you took the time to read this. much love, Pistachio, Ezraeil.
I took two things from this: He should not have skipped out on court, because he probably has a record for that but would have had the original charge dropped in the first place, and may not be so bright, and; You seem to let just anyone drive you around, at any speed, in areas where they're liable to hit anything, by virtue of their low level of driving ability. Other than that, good luck with everything.
Sounds like your only problem now is distance, good luck with that. (Your title sucks compared to the whole post ; love doesn't hurt, police does)
