Man...opiates suck. Yeah they make you feel good for 4 hours..but then after you get that empty feeling....it trying to draw you back into feeling better...i have only been on my pain meds for 1 month and i feel like just stopping I have an addictive personality as it is...yeah these help the pain..but leave you feeling empty and alone after...these things are evil...
i never found it that way i found opiates are the evil drug for sure but because they trick you. I was doing cocaine and E in highschool and always hated the comedown that came with the high, almost not worth it but always did it. So i searched up how to completely destroy the sketchiness and found oxycontin. Next thing i know i try it and it works and all of a sudden i find my new fav drug. Oxy was feeling like coke euphoria wise and making me talk and my body extremely good and i would have the best sleep after! until that 14th day and i didn't have any left? What the hell was this i was feeling, oh withdrawls. And so it began and i learned very quick nothing can come without ur payback.
They can be evil, yes. But I'd rather deal with the side effects, including addiction, to the pain. They give me a better quality of life in the long run than I would have otherwise. At least that's how I look at it.
Your right, until you run out. You can say Ill never run out, not gonna happen to me, im too smart. Then thats when it happens. Here it is 3 days before refill, you think back, how did this happen? The answer is you took an extra here and there, maybe you lost one as well.....etc. It happens to the best of us, it could be 6 months, a year after you started ur treatment or started using, Its a struggle once tollerance kicks in, 1-2 pills used to do the trick, but now your in a situation where that dose doesnt cut it and you WILL reach a point where your dose doesnt get it done. Chronic Pain Patients that follow a strict regime, they too will find themselves in this situation as well. So if your using for recreation, then you have another outside force working against you, your DEALER. He will be the first person that wont be able to maintain your habit. Hr'll run out and ur gonna be pissed cause now ur stuck and can't find any, but then you find someone with some for sale, so u buy all he has because u dont want to run out again, but now your tollerance is up and guess what, you have like way more doses than you need for that 3 days until refill, so you are all happy and you take an extra cause well thats what it takes now and you wanted to treat yourself. BUT, now day 3 arrives, you had a great run with all those pills you bought and its refill day, the greatest day of the month, you get your refill and BAM it hits you, if I want these to last all month, I have to take as perscribed, else you find yourself right back where u were 4 days ago. Its a visious cycle and it will WIN!
thats the truth man. thats pretty much exactly what happened to me, except i never bought off the street. i'd suck on my fentanyl patches, which would usually last me about 25 days out of the 30 it was suppose to- i also got 90- 10mg IR oxy's for b/t pain, which i would save for when i'd run outta fentanyl, but my tolerance was so high that i was lucky to even make 900mg of oxy last 3 days- and that was just to keep well- nevermind it dealing with my regular pain..vicious cycle is right. cudos to any pain patients on opiates that can keep themselves in line. what about this Agmentine stuff i heard ETK talkin about? does it really work in keeping your tolerance down?
I fucking love opiates, its always a special treat when I cop some. I don't get any negative side effects from dependence because I don't have an addictive personality. I can have one good nod and be satisfied for the week.
ya i never get addicted. If i was rich or got free opiates im sure it would be a hard habit to break. But when i use drugs i end up dirt poor and think to myself was that really worth it. So its just fun to use when ur loaded with cash. Tobacco is whats evil i cant ever go a day without that. Even weed is 50x more addicting to me than any opiate. I have been 10 months clean from weed and i think about molers more than anything else. I have always said molers feel almost exactly like a heroin rush. Now molers ON h hehe i forgot that was the reason i loved h so much.
Oh, I'm not arguing, I know all about the vicious cycle you get into, I'm there now. And there is an alternative. Get off the meds and stay in bed, basically. As it is I can get around and do some things. It's not 100% relief of course, I never had the illusion of that, but the meds provide a quality of life that I wouldn't have otherwise. Hopefully someday they'll come up with something that's not addictive. Probably not in my lifetime of course. Until then opiates are what we have.
