Just have to say, I never thought of mental illness as an "alternative lifestyle" I'd like to start by letting you know what I am afflicted with. I have chronic depression, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Social Anxiety Disorder. (YaY?) Thankfully most of my symptoms have been managed for years now with the proper medication. However I have to say that mental illness is a WONDERFUL muse for poetry. I thought I would share some of my soul that is my poetry, made possible by my mental distress. WARNING: If you are depressed atm and think dark content will "trigger" your depression PLEASE MOVE ON. My poetry is dark and I do not want to put anyone in a bad place!!!!!!!! This Poem, to me, describes social anxiety and depression better than I ever could. Alone/Outside June 22, 2001 -Alone I look into the dark I face this daily pain I douse the fragile spark I light it up again I left it all behind I know it's coming back I think I wouldn't mind I have felt the lack I run away from life I cry when I'm alone I go through all the strife I realize then I'm home - -Outside I blend into the crowd I disconnect my face I try to act so proud I drown in my disgrace I smile at all the faces Ignore the evil hate I look for any traces Try to compensate I finally turn away I cannot face your stares I hate the faded way seems that no one cares _____________________________ This one describes parts of depression and OCD Arrival October 8, 2001 Aspirations in my heart, shine, but oh so dimly, like water gleaming in moonlight. My downfall is this brain, sections of matter don't communicate, sensibility is threatened. Witness senseless destruction, as I react emotionally, to internal insanity. Arrival to the point of acceptance, riding the road to nowhere, because I travel in circles. _____________________________ I can't find the one that, to me, describes OCD perfectly, it's called "Circles" but I'll just post this for now and see what ya'll think and go from there... Thank you for reading me...
Interesting poems. I cant say I like them, but thats only because of their subject matter. They do seem to achieve their purpose though, in giving you an outlet for your thoughts and anxieties, and thats the most important thing! I could especially relate to the one dealing with social anxiety and depression, it struck something of a nerve in me. keep it up! Peace
Thank you for reading me! I understand about not "liking them" but.. "They do seem to achieve their purpose though, in giving you an outlet for your thoughts and anxieties, and thats the most important thing!" YES that is to me, as well as getting across how I feel, if I can do that, I feel I did a good job. I'm sorry to hear you can relate though.
I found the one that expresses OCD perfectly.... Circles September 11, 2001 I can't express my torment, I cannot get across. How I think and what goes through my mind and that part of me I've lost. A single dying ember, cries out to be set free. But the winds of madness that prevail will never let that be. Thoughts and words in circles, always comes out the same. I try to hide myself from this but it's a thing I can't contain. Amazing insecurity, I confront this everyday, I beg for it to leave me but it will not go away. I want to be something different, Without the craziness inside, Cause it's been built up and fed and now it's something I can't hide. Everyday I struggle, Every thought I fear, For it starts with just one little thing and becomes a flood of tears.
