had an intense experience over the weekend. Dropped a large amount of psychedelic…...it was an indescribably beautiful experience. felt i woke up and everything was infinitely beautifully colored and themed into elabourate motifs. Any one else had similar feelings of “waking up” as if from some deep sleep ….its a wonderful feeling...also a feeling that everything is one.....and how could you ever be lonley again..... i dont know bout posting this ...but i guess ild hit the send button
thinking about this in retrospect...im very aware of my feelings around this issue...i love the experience...it is gift from god....i am a very quiet woman....mostly i walk round with my hand over my mouth for some reason...and work allot..i love my work..i am a artist...my experiences tell me allot about light and the stories i can tell with paint....other than that i love peace ...just peace..i live in a war torn country....i want peace..just peace.
well this little thread is turning into a small blog. i have chronic depression and years ago ended up on a pile of medically prescribed pharmaceutical medication...i was way too trusting of the medical profession. these medications have really messed up my life and now have no positive action in my mind or body. all im left with is uncomfortable and dangerous side effects. i am exploring psychedelics again in my life as a healing agent and trying to dump these god dammed psych meds that are messing me up now big time. i have intermittently used psychedelics all my life actually ...however sometimes years can go by between doses and i did not fully understand ...until now the healing properties of these sacred things. i never abused psychedelics as i had a sense of their awesome power . i spent part of my childhood on a tropical dairy farm on the north coast of nsw in australia. i first understood the power of psychoactive mushrooms in my childhood as mushrooms use to grow in abundance on the farm. however i did not really take them seriously until the hippies moved in and taught me what they where and how to use them properly. since than a huge amount of time has passed and i have intermittently used these type of substances for over 40 years. actually they always scared me a bit and i exercised much caution as i had a younger brother who over used them to great misfortune. these substances are to be handled with the upmost respect..this i know. i became very interested in psychedelics this time round when i was given a dissociative psychedelic as a anesthesia for a surgical procedure here in mexico. the experience was very useful. Currently i am addicted to a shit bag pharmaceutical medication that is proving very difficult to terminate its use. it has lost all positive action and all i am left with is negative side effects. as far as the depression goes it is genetic and chronically painful and has driven me to abuse some drugs however i would not say that i am a addict. the worst drug i abused was alcohol which was a bloody nightmare...however that was years back and im long over that one. i do hope i can be a useful member of these forums and do hope that i can in some small way contribute to the growing pool of knowledge regarding mental health and psychedelics. My apologies regarding the poor spelling and syntax…I have dyslexia. Anyway….i have depression related sleep disorder and usually wake up before dawn…the sun is coming up now on a new day…hopefully it will be a good one. god i wish i could get off this shit pharmaceutical medication...its wrecking my health. i tried several times and suffered huge withdrawels even with tiny dose cuts. Cheers to you all.
well my feeling of well being underlaying all these meds is lasting. i have made some smaller cuts in my meds and have had some side effects. however i am now well imformed as to the nature of the problems. i will continue to get well.
been doing some reasearch about the classic psychedelic writers i find their observations very interesting and relivent. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbI4f1WvN9w"]Aldous Huxley - Doors of Perception - YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=Hd4rgyZzseY&NR=1 and also an interesting interview in 1958 by aldous huxley https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3TQZ-2iMUR0"]Aldous Huxley interview-1958 (FULL) - YouTube my mood has stabilised as i idientified the pharmaceutical medication cut that was giving me the problems. as i stated well my feeling of well being and unity underlaying all this pharmaceutical medication mess is lasting. this is giving me a feeling of optimism and a pragmatic approach to my illness. this gives me a sense of transcendence of the pain of withdrawel. my "experience" was diminished to some digree in its depth by the medications however the dose was sufficent enough to give me a broader vision of a better world for myself and the people around me. also an interview with neil goldsmith aithor of psychedelic healing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1GbyP4ROF0&feature=related"]Human Detour - Neal_Goldsmith_Part_01 - YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2PpaNCWBOo"]Neal Goldsmith: Why psychedelics are healing to me (part 1) - YouTube the goldsmith interviews are in small parts which is a tad anoying. this one is better https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdZ3Xz3oWP8"]How "Active" is Psychoactive (& Why a Cancer Cure)? - YouTube i can not read wery well as i have dyslexia however i acess allot of imformation via text readers and online videos and selective viewing of tv. i find the last neil goldsmith interview and the longer 1958 by interview by aldous huxley most interesting. there is also a possibility that i may have cancer so that adds to the importance of my personal reasearch.
well...as time has passed i do believe that i have got every benefit from this form of therapy I can. my pharmaceutical medication use is right down which is a blessing and i am over the withdrawals...and im feeling better too..i do think my experience was of benefit short term. However i do not think i can gain too much more from the experimental use of psychedelics at present. hence i will not be engaging in their use probably for many years again....i think they can be of great use to the terminally ill or those in terrible pain....and i praise the researchers who try and help humanity by investigating these modalities of healing. for me ..i think my meditation practice is just as effective in managing my symptoms and developing that feeling of being awake also expanding the minds ability to function as a whole unit. I highly recommend tm. It is simple easy and very effective in the reduction of stress and general healing of the body and mind. Plus I believe it has less chance of negative side effects. I am no role model of mental health…however I give it my best shot on a daily basis. Thanks.
