I am a 20 year old girl. I have been lucid dreaming since forever! I can remember my first dream, I was probably around 8 years old, I was standing in the kitchen and I looked around and I just sort of realized that this was not my kitchen. I don't know how I concluded that young, that I was in a dream but I did. To make sure I was right I needed to test it. My parents were also in the kitchen and I screamed out a swear word, I don't remember which one, it could have even been the word "stupid" but whatever it was at the time I knew I wasn't allowed to say it. So my parents looked at each other and I felt nervous but they really didn't react, i could see they were angry but it wasn't a typical reaction. That was my first Lucid dream that I can remember. I think I started having them so early because before I would go to bed every night when I was younger I would close my eyes and create a dream in my head while i was still very awake and conscious. I thought maybe it would turn into a real dream, I had a very vivid imagination. It never did turn into a real dream, but I think that is what made me more aware that I was asleep I could tell the difference between my mind creating a dream awake, and me having a real dream asleep. Now I am still lucid dreaming, the thing about my dreams though is they are almost always sexual. I will tell you now that while awake I am not like that creepy horny girl all the time, no not at all. My boyfriend gets annoyed sometimes since he is the one always wanting to initiate that type of thing. But in my dreams I turn into someone completely different. People say they look at their hands or look at the time on a clock to see if they are dreaming, I usually notice the way people react when I do certain things which is probably pretty risky haha. but for instance one time I was in public and I was pretty sure I knew I was dreaming so to test it I took off all of my clothes and began to masterbate. The people definitely reacted but not like they would in real life. I am extremely aggressive in my dreams to I will try to have sex with almost anyone I see sometimes. I have been a girl having sex with a boy, an girl having sex with a girl, a boy having sex with a girl and a boy having sex with a boy. Whats weird about it, is that I promise I am a straight girl who loves her bf and has zero interest in doing any of these things in real life, but its almost like when I know Im dreaming I need to do inappropriate things because I know that I will never get the chance to do anything like this anywhere else. I don't enjoy the dark dreams though I just love exploring sex in my lucid dreams. And when I wake up I just want to go back to sleep almost every morning.. any comments or questions or can anyone relate?
well here is the thing, what i believe anyway, our bodies, and the physical gender of them, belong to this world we are awake in, we dwell in them so to speak, when we're awake, but they're not really us. our true selves have no fixed gender, species, or appearance. so being able to take unfamiliar forms in the dream universe, and to be more or less sexually aggressive then we are in this one, is nothing surprising to me at all. as for wanting to go back to sleep, well that universe is to me, neither more nor less real then this one. just a totally separate and different one. and one that in it, i do feel safer, calmer, and no such thing as anxiety as at all, which in this world i've been raised and grown up accustomed to. also in that other universe there is a disconnect between sex and pregnancy. i don't think i've ever met anyone pregnant in it. nor anyone worried about being born or dying. not that i think people are there perminently either, any more then we are in this one. i think people just pop into existence in that universe, without the trauma and inconvenience of childhood, nor that of aging. this may be where all the traditions about an afterlife being eternal may have came from. but i don't think people are there any more eternally then we are here. more like a way stop between other lives, if it should happen that there is such a thing. at any rate, hands, mirrors, words and numbers in books or on computer screens, even the senses of touch and taste and smell, work just fine for me in them. the only thing that tells me i'm in that one instead of this is how some things work differently. things that don't seem to work in this one very well, often, or at all, like teleporting and all that sort of thing. oddly in my own dreaming, i am almost never with anyone to have sex with, or even think about it. although i do remember when i was very young, before my body was even capable of having sex, THEN there were sex-like experiences in them. well we're each odd in our own ways. that much holds the same for either universe, or any.
