my thoughts

So essentially, you are saying that you looked to other people to validate your experiences, approval and interest in yourself and your life.

Now that you have had many people approve of you and validate that you're a likable or lovable person you're struggling with feeling that approval from yourself.

This is nothing new... find a way to be with yourself and do things that make you feel confident and fulfilled as a person. Learn to be fulfilled with yourself, your desires, your goals, your talents, your creativity, your mind and your emotions... your abilities to go out into the world and make yourself happy. When you get used to that idea...of making yourself happy and being content with who you are... meeting/engaging with other people will become a meaningful experience, rather than just an experience.

Don't let other people's ideas, communication or intimacy validate who you are. Don't look to others for approval or to learn who you are or what you want...all of that is inside you and you have to be honest about who you are, what you want, accept it and take action... it will take more leniency and patience than you might expect. Most people are too hard on themselves, have unrealistic expectations and are quick to label themselves failures without giving themselves a proper chance to develop and succeed at their goals. Practice self love.

Don't dwell in the negatives.

 

Damn those women who lead you astray! What a silly thing to say.

So you are at a cross road in your path, now what are you going to do about it?

Where do you want your path to lead and what are you going to change in you to get there?

 

Thank you ill keep your words in mind ....
I write when I'm sad so if they seem all needy
Its because I want to discharge the thoughts in my mind ...
I used to smoke pot every day all day and after a while that life style just was not for me felt like every one was doing it because it was the cool thing so I said fuck it ima get a job and I did took me a while but I have one and now I'm a very single guy who wants his best friend back I lost my last one when I started working I honestly think she stopped liking me because I didn't have time for her or she could of just been sick of me being me meeting girls having my way with out even trying
then going home to her
.... Sounds weird but I loved her more than any thing even tho I suck as a bf always will always have .... Some how I'm just a better best friend ill treat my laidy like my godess no other girl will get in the way it will just be her and not her and a bunch of skanks lol skanks are fun though .... So yeah I meet this knew girl and she is amazing every thing about her is totally effing weird she is not girly at all she loves to take charge and loves to talk and I could listen to her all day and when she has nothing to say I can sit their stairing at her amazing tattos .... Really hope she will be my lady some day don't mind waiting for her ... Today was a good day at work it cleared my mind talked to a lot of customers maid them feel loved ... Feed a homeless person gave him all the food and water I had I never give a homeless person money I feel like food is a way better idea keeps them alive and all u know ... And now I'm here just waiting for my mind to calm down relax and daze off into a dream land hope fully tomorrow will be a day to remeber oh wait tomorrow is today .... Stay high fly low ...

 

Just smoke let's talk