straight long term relationship with kids, im not straight an its starting to show :(

i have been with my absolute soul mate my best friend in the world for nearly 12 years now, i love him i do, with have 2beautiful children 1 on the way (due december) but i have never been straight, almost every straight experiance has made my skin crawl, i just dont do men! but mine has always been something else its almost like were totally neutral in bed in life ect im not repulsed by him. but recently (well past2years maybe) im becoming more and more distant when we have sex/play i drift off till he becomes a she in my mind, i do things like i want to do them and it really dont work when your faced with a set of bollocks (u know? lol) he says im always reaching for things that arnt there, i kiss him differently. im craving but i cant tell him its not for him at 6an a half months pregnant i cant find a release for all this pent up frustration, were pretty open i wouldnt mind sharing him if we could just have a plaything for the night, but im scared i dont think it would end there for me and im not a cheat. but i cant go on like this surely? help x

 

I really don't know what to tell you, except to talk with him about finding a third, a woman, preferably bi, that would play with both of you, or see if he can satisfy you with oral. Aside from that, a sex doll is about all you could to do stay with him and, have a female or, female like experience when you needed it as well.

Of course you know that bringing this into the open has a lot of risks. Are you ready to face those possibilities? Be ready before you do anything.