ecstasy addiction?

How long ago was that and how are you now?

 

That was last summer, maybe a little longer ago.. I am not like super fucked or anything, but before last summer I was having the most amazing trips. Like my trips were evolved to a level where I was getting just impossibley complex visualizations on par with some dmt experiences even off low doses of mushrooms.

Then I got big into the rave/club scene and started using lsd and x every other weekend. Sometimes even doing it multiple times a week. By the end of the summer I noticed a strange thing happening in my trips. They were no longer clear visuals, there was just like static. I got really scared because I felt like I was broken. My brain could no longer piece together the complex art, and just replaced it with bunch of semi-trippy mush. I would feel like something should be there and it wouldn't. It felt like my vision was melted together at some point.

I am not really sure if I caused any long term effects. I haven't tripped in awhile, so I don't know what it will be like now, but cognitively I feel fine. I have been using that lumnosity website and smoking less weed and feel like my memory and my social and cognitive skills have increased. Sober I feel fine. I would actually like to test it now and see where Im at tripping.

Just saying tho, I thought I could just go on mdma highs every week without any real consequences, but it seems I was wrong. Be careful cause you only have one body. You know use these substances properly!

 

Read this trip report. It's about an ayahuasca trip after ecstacy abuse. Gives some interesting perspective.
https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&t=34081

 

It's possible to become addicted to MDMA. It is possible to become addicted to a lot of things, even things that aren't drugs......

I love e. I can't do it. Addicted. It left my life is a disaster. Now I still have effects and its been half a year since I've even taken a bean.

 

I think heart attacks would be enough to make me stop pretty much anything...

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9RCpXMiLTA"]You rack disciprine - YouTube