I was a druggy for 25 years. I started out at age 12 reading the health class book on drugs of abuse. Cops used to bring cases with real drugs in them to sixth grade classes and give us lectures. Those lectures had the opposite effect on me. My next door neighbor and I started doing bongloads of catnip with his parents bong until we popped a three hit bowl. The day they left out some Columbian Gold was the real start of my new life. I went through phases smoking quaaludes (a WC thing), acid, and getting babysitting jobs to raid people's medicine chests. I bad tripped on acid about ten times when I was fifteen, a punk rocker, living in Hollywood and dropped out of school. I cleaned up from scared. I went back to school, college, got a degree, weight lifted, went to law school. Dropped out, started waiting tables, started smoking crack, getting stoned - stayed stoned for the next 20 years straight. Got into opiates, poppy pods, then benzos, assorted pain killers, got a pain doctor. Went through withdrawls so many times. Drank hard bourbon neat, blacked out - DWI, mugged, ended up in hospitals, jail, fights, broken bones, did acid, shrooms, mescaline, finally gave it all up. I decided that at age fifty I needed what was left of my brain. Now, when I look back on it all there were no true friends made, no accomplishments, no deep probing discussions which felt like truth. It was all bullshit. And I bought and paid for the whole thing. I was the dope. Now I see all the time on boards like this about people trying heroin, crack, coke, this shit and that shit. It's all like stepping in dogshit. I just stepped in brown shit. I just stepped in black shit, messy shit, clean shit, smelly shit, fresh shit.
abusing drugs sucks. drugs themselves aren't inherently good or bad. does smoking catnip actually do something?
Reformed drug (ab)users that suddenly become like spokespeople for Drug free America are the worst. These anecdotes following a 'drugs suck' proclamation largely falls on deaf ears. That's not to say that some people who are now clean telling their stories of past use can't be effective and a deterrent but I think it requires a more tactful approach to deliver a resonating message.
I've been clean and sober since March of this year but am seriously wanting to go back to my old medicated and sedated ways, I really want a drink and I'd kill for a Xanax. I guess this is just one more test to see how committed I am to my new lifestyle.
i did a hit of acid and had fun watching the cover of my pink floyd box set slither around like a snake. then i laughed my ass off at some tv and drew some fucked up pictures. then i went to sleep and woke up to go to work. i worked without passing out or jumping off a roof or killing anyone. in fact i lived my life just like i lived it before i ever tried drugs.
I agree. Drugs can suck, they can also be very beneficial. I'd say money and police suck generally before I'd say drugs suck. Life is too mysterious, distractions too various.
