How do i become financially stable?

I'm not sure how much I would consider myself a real hippie, or what that means. I do not like being a part of the Capitalist world, and strive to overcome my anti-establishment values that were instilled by my hippie parents. My dad is financially stable, and is supporting my brother, mother, and me. My mom is disabled, my brother's in college, and I Can't seem to support myself because for years I have not had access to a car for myself.

I now have my license, and I'm trying to convince my dad to give me the refund from college so that I can buy a car and start working. It's just that he's so darn busy with his job he hasn't had time to talk to me for months, and also he just had tooth surgery so now I can't talk to him for a couple days or however long until he can talk and isn't wiped out from drugs for the surgery. I just don't know what to do! I'm scared of becoming homeless and I couldn't tell my dad that I should just be supported financially instead of being told I needed to go to college...because i personally think college is going to put me in debt and not help. He gets NO HELP whatsover from the government. NONE.

Because he has enough money just to get by for all of us with his one job as a computer programmer, but since it's a singularly large amount of money, I guess the government deems there no need to support us when he's trying to get my brother through college and cannot even help my mom, who has schizophrenia or something...and me, who now may have schizoaffective or something like Bipolar and ADHD. I hate mental illness, but I cant seem to change or control it without medication. I only take one anti-psychotic, had to stop taking ADHD meds because of them over stimulating me. I just want out, or need help, or something. I have been so stressed out about having to withdraw from school that I overdosed just this past few weeks ago, and didn't tell anyone in my family that I Had. I took a stimulant, antipsychotics, and Aspirin...I'm so stupid.

I'm being guilt tripped, even by my brother, who doesn't understand that i CANNOT FINISH COLLEGE RIGHT NOW. I am too sick and unstable. I need to write a letter to get a refund, but none of it goes to me anyways it goes to my dad who may not support me anymore in college or school etc. I am told repetitively that I must finish college and get a job, though I've been in and out of college for six years and I'm still just a sophomore. I have all my General studies out of the way, but my major requires 180 credit hours or something plus a minor. I still needed more science and math. I am terrible at math. I am just not smart enough anymore. WTH am I supposed to do especially if I don't have a car yet? ESPecially if I have NEVER EVER worked!!?? I'm soooo lost.

 

Two days, no replies.........gotta stir it up

-no car???-didn't see it in your post, but are you that far from potential work??? Public transit??? Just saying.

I believe you have on line access. That gives you access to on line college?

It will get you started. Way cheaper than physical college. Knowledge is knowledge.

For me, I am happier to try and do something than find reasons I can't

Just saying.
Good luck

Peace