I think I was touched as a kid...

I am not fully sure if this is exactly what happened... but a faded memory of something like this is in my head. I dream about it, and it is exactly the same as my memory... But I don't fully remember, it is like it happened... but it didn't... If that makes sense...

If it did happen, it was my older brothers friend(he is 2 years older than me)
One day he was over and he got me to take my clothes off(at least this is what I remember, think or dream..) And he touched my genitals... Licked me, smelled me and sucked me... I think he tried to get me to pee in his mouth... Made me look at him naked... made me smell his body just about every where... I don't fully remember it all... I had to be 5 at the time... At least its what I remember... and in every dream that I dream about it... I am about 5... I just don't know what happened or if I am just crazy and making up thoughts... But it feels so real... I don't know...

How do I find out if it is real? Maybe someone knows? Maybe we were caught... What if we weren't? What do I do...?

 

kids often have play like that.. its nothing to really worry about when the age isnt that far off.

 

But I didn't want to play that... It was forced upon me.

 

you can make yourself believe either or. I have very little memory at the age of 5. I can imagine a lot of things. however when I was a little older. friends babysitter and boyfriend molested my freind(female) and I.. I wouldnt even call it molesting. I do not recall wanting to play. but I know I wasnt hurt and neither was my friend. we grew up later and talked about it.

your talking about a 7old having enough power and reasoning beyond discovery.. impossible, unless trained by someone else..

Why my I ask is this bothering you now. Have you become undecided about your sexuality?.

 

Not at all. As of late a lot of things from my past, have been in my thoughts and I have been dreaming about them a lot too... It is odd actually... This is just something I never told anyone, and wanted to speak on I guess. Also I want to know what happened. Guess I don't like not knowing if it was real or not.

And he later on turned out gay and also had a bunch of family issues... Now him being touched could definitely be a possibility. I don't think it is impossible.

 

If its interring with you!like playing on your mind you get concealing..like professional advice.

 

I suggest you try hypnose, to find out what those visions are about. But before that, think if you really want to know the truth?