I have been using DMT ever since I first obtained it. I have had about 50 experiences so far and have noticed something very strange. First is the effects it has on my ego, sometimes it is there, sometimes it isn't. By that, I mean sometimes I will trip, it will be very intense but is not accompanied by any softening or destruction of my ego, sometimes I enter the trip feeling more sober than I normally do in my normal state. Other times I enter with my ego so smashed differentiating between my body and the inanimate objects around me becomes impossible. Another thing is that all my experiences are never the same, however it feels like they are all leading to something. Initially I would have experiences where I would see very little visuals but my ego would be almost gone, then it moved on to having sensations of having died and being with many old familiar acquaintances cheering me on and telling me to come over to their side. At this point the visuals started becoming more intense. The experiences then progressed to me no longer having that sensation of being dead and with old friends, but rather were more centered on seeing glimpses of complex geometric patterns and futuristic mechanical-biological life forms/cities/places that I innately knew somehow represented everything there is, then I begun to merge with these complex systems/life forms but always felt like there was something huge going on but I was at the button of it. Recently I have begun feeling at the center of it. Sometimes I will have experiences where I am in a complex dome of some sort with one of more entities composed entirely of energy of varying colors(usually blueish or purplish but sometimes redish)and they will communicate with me and go through what seems like random memories in my head, and show me their realms. I no longer have experiences where I enter with my ego very destroyed, though that may be because my ego has changed. Prior to using DMT I had been getting high on weed on a daily basis and started developing mild delusions that I was God and in control of everything. After my first DMT experience I made the decision to quit smoking weed. It has been almost a month and I have since only smoked weed twice(soley due to experimental purposes on how it effects my personality/perception of the world). As you may suspect, I no longer have delusions of being God. I just want to know for those who have had many DMT experiences how did your experiences change over time?
I've had about 25 DMT trips. Doses have ranged from roughly 30-80 mgs, most the doses I discuss will be those above 40 mgs as I find the doses below that don't create as intense of a trip. I feel like my last couple trips weren't as visual as some of my earlier DMT trips. I'm not sure if this has to do with the fact that my initial DMT trips were so radically mindblowing and thoroughly visual trips that it's difficult to maintain that level consistently but regardless I feel the intensity has remained fairly constant. The comedown of the DMT has remained a euphoric waning of the effects. There are like two types of DMT trips that come to my mind. The first one is the otherworldly trip where all this alien information, entities, complex machinery seems to be bombarding my mind at an unrelenting heavy rapid pace. The other trip is what I would call the elegant trip, I find this trip is where all objects in a room seem to attain a perfect form of themselves (reminds me of a concept I believe Socrates Postulated) and there is a very graceful and elegant quality to the whole experience. I've found this latter type trip more prevalent among my experiences with Changa. Similar to you I also have experiences where I feel completely lucid and 'sober' on the DMT trip and then experiences where I feel completely lost and cannot pick up on any enviornmental cues to remember my surroundings. I have written a few trip reports if you are interested in knowing more specifics regarding my DMT trips. First DMT trip(s) http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=401358&f=457 DMT: The Abandoned Room http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=405753&f=457 Cerebral Ping Pong: http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=407999&f=457
Yea haha I was just really excited that I finally came across it, that and I found the smoke very harsh on my lungs so decided to smoke low doses regularly to accustom my lungs to it. I no longer do it everyday, I only use DMT when I feel 80% up for it. Any slight doubts, fears or anxieties and I don't use it.
Damn, you don't waste any time osake. How many times a day are you smoking? I tried DMT 3 times in a night once and on the 3rd time I felt like my head was going to explode. I got the feeling I was being told I had been there enough for a while.
I have had a few negative dmt experiences, a couple of them were terrifying. I have found that the best way to avoid having bad experiences is to take a good break in between journeys. Nowadays I only use dmt about 2-3 times a month, but I have gone for well over 7 months without using any after one negative experience. But I never really got scared of it, I just knew that I needed a break for a while, and when I finally decided to dive back in it was beautiful once again. I haven't had a bad experience in a while now, but I have had some VERY intense ones within the past month. Be safe, take time to integrate the experience and meditate on it. You will start to remember a lot more from the experiences this way also.
Usually when I smoke DMT, it will be twice per day but as my lungs have now gotten use to it I don't have DMT sessions daily, only when I feel like the time is right, so lately that has been around 3 - 4 times a week. Haha yea I use to have that feeling all the time, after my last hit I would get that "errr head is about to explode" feeling sometimes the sensation was spread throughout my whole body.
During my 2nd negative DMT experiences the message i got by various entities was DMT is no joke, it is to be taken VERY seriously, you are nowhere near as big as you think you are, we could make this trip VERY unpleasant for you(me and insects don't exactly mix well, during the experience I found myself in an alien futuristic beehive like dome and it's that colors of its walls were constantly changing and so were its geometric patterns. I was quite sure that any moment now the whole dome would be covered in bees. It felt like the trip and reality had switched, reality no longer mattered, i was just a small insignificant spec of thought that somehow got to this other dimension.)respect us, and we will respect you. I was given various other messages as to why I was having a very negative experience. Ever since prior to any DMT experience I will say a small prayer regarding why I am using it and what my goal is. Ever since my experiences have all been positive and more clear, and my uncomfortably of insects has reduced significantly.
I always take a few minutes before blasting off to explain to myself what I would like to get out of the experience, I always have to double check and make sure my intentions are right. And I sometimes ask the spice out loud to please give me an enjoyable experience, and it usually works.
