I don't know what's wrong with me. I love the idea of sex, I really do. I LOVE thinking about being fucked senseless. But reality's much more disappointing. It doesn't hurt when I have sex. I still love having sex because it's still really hot to me. But it doesn't actually feel good. I don't really know how to describe it other than just not feeling good. The best way I can describe it is the feeling of putting a tampon in/out. It doesn't feel good, it just...happens. I've tried so many positions and angles to try and get it to feel good, but it just doesn't. I don't know if there's something wrong with me or the guy. I do know that I'm ridiculously paranoid about having babies. I'm so scared of getting pregnant. I'm already on birth control and we have sex with a condom on and I'm still too scared to let him cum inside me. I might be psyching myself out of enjoying sex or something, but then again it's not like I'm constantly worrying/being anxious about getting pregnant while we're having sex. I mostly just feel nervous before and after. I know that many women have problems orgasming from sex alone, but there's definitely something wrong with my situation because it doesn't even feel good. If it wasn't such a turn-on being fucked, I wouldn't ever have sex because it's risking pregnancy without it even feeling good. On the subject of orgasms, it's really difficult for the guy to give me one. I have NO problems making myself cum; I can make myself cum three times in five minutes (though I'll be utterly exhausted afterwards). But when I do it, it's ridiculously fast with a ridiculous amount of pressure--basically, something only I can do. I've tried showing the guy how to do it, but he couldn't go fast enough or put too much pressure in the wrong place and ended up hurting me. I've tried making myself cum different ways, but it just doesn't work unless I go fast and rough. When the guy tries to make me cum, it's a fuckin miracle when he does. I've noticed I cum every time we 69, but I'd prefer to have orgasms different ways rather than being stuck with 69ing any time I want the guy to make me cum. To give you an idea of how rare it is for the guy to make me cum...me and him have been together about a year, and I've had an orgasm from him about 10-15 times. All were from 69ing except one. I'm worried I also don't have a normal orgasm. I've heard stories about women screaming, squirting, and shaking when they cum, or their orgasms last for a while, and they're left exhausted. When I orgasm, it's like a few seconds of bliss and that's about it. No screaming, no trembling, no squirting. Just me silently laying tense for a few seconds and then I'm back to normal. When I make myself orgasm, I'm only tired from moving my arm so fast. When the guy makes me cum, it doesn't leave me tired at all. In fact, after I cum and it wears off after a few seconds, I'm hornier than ever while he's tired. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sex doesn't feel good to me, I rarely orgasm with a guy, and my orgasms are very uneventful.
You must first know your own terrain and even then if you couldn't reach, you must have go enough consistent, intense clitoral stimulation to lead to orgasm and without that big Stress!
